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i need to find a way to vent my inner thoughts or feelings. I feel like the whole great momentium that I once had at about the time of graduating college has sort of puttered off. The tours were great. The whole self-realization was amazing. I'm over it. As shitty and selfish as that sounds, and as hard as I wored for it at that time .. that's how i feel. I'm unmotivated, aggrivated, jaded, and I guess.. depressed. I spent all of my energy to be able to do what I just did over the past two years. Now it's unimpressive to me. Maybe because all of the people I met doing that were also over it. I want to write in a journal again. which means I might abandon this one - for good. i might just start all over. i have no idea. i'm trying to figure it out. i don't know if anyone even reads this anymore.