chocolate milk
I've been staying up late every night worrying.
I am a mess and should keep to myself more often, but can't escape the want to go out and enjoy the summer weather.
I apparently can't let go of the past, even though I thought I was finally able to. That's such a disappointment.
My friend really needs me, but I refuse to help him, because I'm too busy worrying about myself and don't want to have to "deal" with other peoples problems. (take note of this)
My boyfriend misses me and I don't care, because I'm too obsessed with "moving on," even though I've yet to really move on at all. At least not legitimately.
My family is freaking out, because of bullshit law suits that they wasted money on and they think I don't want to go to college anymore for some reason.
I still haven't taken my placement tests for STAC. I don't think I want to go there. I kind of just want to move and start college somewhere else in the spring.
I may in fact be fucking up my entire life and everything I've built up for years right now and it's making my heart hurt all the time.
I wish I could just forget everything and sleep.