halfway to thirty days clean and sober
i wasn't going to post this until i had a month clean and sober. the DT's(delirium tremors-alcohol with drawl) didn't last long enough for me to be hospitalized (thank god). i'm currently working on my first and second step with my sponser. it's getting easier(considering how long i've been fucking my life up). i still have a loving mate (kelfstein on LJ and sabertoothlynx on furaffinity-i know him as karl). i just hope i don't relapse. i've been doing it one day at a time and have been to a meeting everyday since the 14th of this month(december-two days before my mom's birthday). my parents (especially my father are trying to be as understanding as possible). my dad is in recovery himself, and has ten years plus clean. my problem is i became a very good functioning drunk/addict. i was pretty good at hiding it(or so i thought: depending who you talk to)...anyway, wish me luck. i intend to start posting soon. in my new found sobriety, i hope to produce some more art, and decent music. right now, i have to be kind of selfish. so if i don't get back to you, take no offense. i need this very badly. or i'm fucked. plain and simple...*hugs you all* btw, thank you junkshop coyote. you'll hear more from me when i work up the nerve to call you