Now it's really official
In reality, this is almost laughable, but the pain is still there. Today I again broke it off with Dylan. I know, I know. Repetitive, isn't it? Oh well, I know things are going for the best this time. Good things come in threes, such as a mondo scholarship, my first housing choice for UA, and I guess this breakup. I was elated earlier in the day, but now I am much calmer and much, much more reflective. Someone asked me earlier if I was regretful, and I would say no. I'm not. In reality, I think that I am grateful of the experience that Dylan gave me. Was it fantastic? No. Was it the best? I think that is also a no.Did I learn something though? Yes, I did.
Anywho, if you think that I have some knowledge of how Dylan is feeling, I don't. Usually I would be able to read though his livejournal, but I'm not his friend anymore (that is understandable, I guess). I'm leaving mine open to him though. I want to make a peaceful gesture. Whatever. I just hate conflict with a capitol H.
And by the way, Dylan, because I know you are going to be reading this. Sorry about the things that I said earlier. at the time, I had every intention of hurting you because you had finally, again, hurt me. But in retrospect after 5 hours of folding tank tops and having plenty of time to think, it was the wrong motives fueled by the wrong emotions. Generally I take back everything I said with the exception of saying that we need to split apart. Although I do think that it is a necessity, I still would love to have the honor of being your friend. Heck, you only have about another three months and then you are finally rid of me. I just don't want this to be on the scale of hate that you had for Even.
A mixed bag of emotions, but generally happy,
David
Anywho, if you think that I have some knowledge of how Dylan is feeling, I don't. Usually I would be able to read though his livejournal, but I'm not his friend anymore (that is understandable, I guess). I'm leaving mine open to him though. I want to make a peaceful gesture. Whatever. I just hate conflict with a capitol H.
And by the way, Dylan, because I know you are going to be reading this. Sorry about the things that I said earlier. at the time, I had every intention of hurting you because you had finally, again, hurt me. But in retrospect after 5 hours of folding tank tops and having plenty of time to think, it was the wrong motives fueled by the wrong emotions. Generally I take back everything I said with the exception of saying that we need to split apart. Although I do think that it is a necessity, I still would love to have the honor of being your friend. Heck, you only have about another three months and then you are finally rid of me. I just don't want this to be on the scale of hate that you had for Even.
A mixed bag of emotions, but generally happy,
David