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Back at University I feel like me again. I look at my long ridiculous upgrading road and groan, and feel a little apprehension about my plans, but I hope if I work hard enough I can get there.
I have a new pair of converse high tops and they make me feel 18, and that makes me feel alive. Friday night while I was stuck inside with a back to school cold, I watched videos of my 18 year old self and I loved her. I miss her. And I know she is in here somewhere. I feel her with me more now these days. I've shed off the people that made me cynical, the people that made me try to hard at being something, someone else.
The future is wide open, instead of letting that scare me I want to know it means nothing is locked down, nothing is for sure and that it means that I can still be anything, anyone I want to be.
I do wish there were more nights getting ready to loud music for nights out with nothing planned, but were all too far spread and "grown up" these days.
I have a new pair of converse high tops and they make me feel 18, and that makes me feel alive. Friday night while I was stuck inside with a back to school cold, I watched videos of my 18 year old self and I loved her. I miss her. And I know she is in here somewhere. I feel her with me more now these days. I've shed off the people that made me cynical, the people that made me try to hard at being something, someone else.
The future is wide open, instead of letting that scare me I want to know it means nothing is locked down, nothing is for sure and that it means that I can still be anything, anyone I want to be.
I do wish there were more nights getting ready to loud music for nights out with nothing planned, but were all too far spread and "grown up" these days.