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Hi. I'm back in Brantford for the weekend. Which is weird and sort of freaked me out two nights ago like deja vu, but intense, intense deja vu that confused the hell out of me.
Life in Peterborough has been good, I have a really good job, but it's hard and really stressful, because I work in a busy restaurant. School, not so much. I kind of dislike (hate) it a lot and wish I could drop out. Jon feels the same way but his parents are putting him through school, so... Yeah. I feel like I'm wasting all my time and money on stuff I already know/knew and the rest is all shitty business and computers and communications classes, things which are all common sense to the common non-idiot. That's a big issue. Therefore I miss way too much school, and Jon follows in suit, as does guilt.
We're talking about where we want to move after Peterborough, and if going for Chef Training is really what we want. It's not what I want, and I don't think he wants it anymore either. He also wants to move either to the West or East coast. I feel awful being 4 hours away from home, let alone thousands of miles! Last night we were hanging out with our good friends in Paris, and I realized how much I missed them, and missed living in a small town. I just feel sick about going home tomorrow, knowing I have school and work on Tuesday. Ugh.
I am so, so, so happy with Jon, I adore living with him and can't imagine it any other way (seriously, it's weird being away from him tonight), but school and work and Peterborough are sort of scaring the hell out of me right now.
Blegh. Fix it.
Life in Peterborough has been good, I have a really good job, but it's hard and really stressful, because I work in a busy restaurant. School, not so much. I kind of dislike (hate) it a lot and wish I could drop out. Jon feels the same way but his parents are putting him through school, so... Yeah. I feel like I'm wasting all my time and money on stuff I already know/knew and the rest is all shitty business and computers and communications classes, things which are all common sense to the common non-idiot. That's a big issue. Therefore I miss way too much school, and Jon follows in suit, as does guilt.
We're talking about where we want to move after Peterborough, and if going for Chef Training is really what we want. It's not what I want, and I don't think he wants it anymore either. He also wants to move either to the West or East coast. I feel awful being 4 hours away from home, let alone thousands of miles! Last night we were hanging out with our good friends in Paris, and I realized how much I missed them, and missed living in a small town. I just feel sick about going home tomorrow, knowing I have school and work on Tuesday. Ugh.
I am so, so, so happy with Jon, I adore living with him and can't imagine it any other way (seriously, it's weird being away from him tonight), but school and work and Peterborough are sort of scaring the hell out of me right now.
Blegh. Fix it.