my aching soul

[friendlypunk_]

what an epic title
i feel like no one knows me
like i dont exist
one day ill wake up dead like rylan.
and well, mostly everyone else will continue to wake up alive.
since rylan and i were going to be roomates this summer, im going to stay at my moms instead.
i was looking forward to growing up a little bit
just being in her company made you wish you'd read more books, seen more movies, downloaded more music,ect.
rylan, your the only girl who could've lived with me.
a. you dont have/want cats, but didnt mind mine
b. you didnt care about doing household tasks regularly as long as they got done
c. you were the coolest person i know.

rylans dead and shes never coming back
and she's not coming back ever
thanks for the socks
and the candle holder
and the mortal and pestal
and letting me pretend i did props for the plays
and getting me stoned in high school
and being a skate park hero and why
why did something happen to someone
so fucking great
when i ho hum through life
offending everyone
being flaky and shitty and an utter mess
you were so calm and sensible
im sorry about what happened with paul
im sorry for being so flaky
my apologises dont matter
because youre dead.
and knowing that makes me cry like a child.