a very apt description of mental illness
i posted this to my own journal and sammason suggested i share it here:
“Is everything okay?” Anne asked me. She sat at our counter, and I stood on the other side, next to the microwave, watching my bowl of soup slowly turn around inside it.
“No, it’s not,” I said, “I’m having a terrible day, and I know it’s because my brain is fucked up and I know it’s going to eventually get better but right now I just want to fucking scream because I feel irritable and anxious and overwhelmed and I know that there’s no logical reason to feel any of these things, but I also know that it’s my fucked up broken brain and I can’t do anything about it so I feel helpless and angry.”
from wil wheatons blog: https://wilwheaton.net/2013/10/i-got-better/
i agree so much with this. it is exactly what it feels like for me. exactly what it does to you. and how you can have a Very Bad No Good Day of Depression in between days of being fine. just a random 'fall deep down into depression' day out of nowhere. go read this post. it ends on a positive note. a reminder that these bad days pass.
“Is everything okay?” Anne asked me. She sat at our counter, and I stood on the other side, next to the microwave, watching my bowl of soup slowly turn around inside it.
“No, it’s not,” I said, “I’m having a terrible day, and I know it’s because my brain is fucked up and I know it’s going to eventually get better but right now I just want to fucking scream because I feel irritable and anxious and overwhelmed and I know that there’s no logical reason to feel any of these things, but I also know that it’s my fucked up broken brain and I can’t do anything about it so I feel helpless and angry.”
from wil wheatons blog: https://wilwheaton.net/2013/10/i-got-better/
i agree so much with this. it is exactly what it feels like for me. exactly what it does to you. and how you can have a Very Bad No Good Day of Depression in between days of being fine. just a random 'fall deep down into depression' day out of nowhere. go read this post. it ends on a positive note. a reminder that these bad days pass.