ADHD, Weed, Ceramics
I was diagnosed with ADHD yesterday (combined type) and I feel excited for the future and being closer finally to the goal of being treated. I also feel very vulnerable right now because it's one thing to suspect you have a disorder. It's another thing to have it verified by a medical professional that you are neurodivergent. Almost everything I do in my life that I used to dismiss as just being a bad habit or being a "weird kid" growing up has context now.
Last week, I tried getting a diagnosis through a service called Ahead. I'd seen an ad for them on Instagram. I don't recommend it. The provider tried to "diagnose" me with Bipolar disorder and completely dismissed my concerns about ADHD. He didn't charge me for the session, but he told me that he wasn't even going to give me the test because he was sure I was bipolar. I'm not a doctor but I am pretty sure that those two conditions can coexist. Also I'm fairly certain I am not bipolar. He was just a jackass. One thing he told me though that I did internalize was that he thought I was addicted to marijuana. He recommended that I seek addiction counseling.
The reason I am awake right now is because I tried to see if I could get to sleep without getting stoned. It's not going well. I don't know if it's addiction. I think i'm self medicating my untreated ADHD. Also I have a medical card because I have C-PTSD. It's medicine. I should just smoke a bowl and go to bed and then find a real doctor and not try to quit cold turkey when I have to WORK TOMORROW and also have a very important interview for a program that would help give me a leg up when interviewing for leadership positions.
Also I started a ceramics class at a community college on Monday and it's a lot harder than I anticipated, but I paid $300 for the class so I intend to be very stubborn about learning this craft.
That's all I'm gonna get high and try to sleep now night night <3
Last week, I tried getting a diagnosis through a service called Ahead. I'd seen an ad for them on Instagram. I don't recommend it. The provider tried to "diagnose" me with Bipolar disorder and completely dismissed my concerns about ADHD. He didn't charge me for the session, but he told me that he wasn't even going to give me the test because he was sure I was bipolar. I'm not a doctor but I am pretty sure that those two conditions can coexist. Also I'm fairly certain I am not bipolar. He was just a jackass. One thing he told me though that I did internalize was that he thought I was addicted to marijuana. He recommended that I seek addiction counseling.
The reason I am awake right now is because I tried to see if I could get to sleep without getting stoned. It's not going well. I don't know if it's addiction. I think i'm self medicating my untreated ADHD. Also I have a medical card because I have C-PTSD. It's medicine. I should just smoke a bowl and go to bed and then find a real doctor and not try to quit cold turkey when I have to WORK TOMORROW and also have a very important interview for a program that would help give me a leg up when interviewing for leadership positions.
Also I started a ceramics class at a community college on Monday and it's a lot harder than I anticipated, but I paid $300 for the class so I intend to be very stubborn about learning this craft.
That's all I'm gonna get high and try to sleep now night night <3