I can't make it right
I am unsure what is going to happen to me now that I am without a relationship. I feel that I am always needing to do something. I can't stop and take a break my mind is just trying to fill my time up. I am going to club Hell, I am going to start teaching in July and in April I am going to Umass to go talk to the students. I am sure that will be good. I am so happy that I have accomplished what I have done but I want to know what is next. What do I want to do, my mind is empty, I wish I could think of what to do. I spent the last year and a half forgetting about me and now it's who I need to think about. It's funny that last journal entry was October or 2006 and I said I didn't think things would last. I guess I should've listened to myself back then. My past experience have taught me alot and so has this past relationship. I can't think of what could've been or what could be, all I know is what is and that is all I need to know...