I am aligned
Sometimes I get nostalgic about getting older, but overall, I freakin' love it! I love the person that I am becoming: more mature, sophisticated, self-assured, calm... Even my body gets better as I get older. Like a car, or a machine that I'm learning to better operate, yoga helps align me, while lifting weights sculpts my muscles into beautiful strong curves and valleys. I am taking care to nourish my body as responsibly as possible. My meals are small and a careful balance of vegetable and protein. I started eating meat again and it has helped me to feel a lot better. With all of the weights that I have been lifting, my body craves meat, so I occasionally find myself eating lean turkey or chicken in moderation. I have never had a weight problem, but I can see why so many Americans do -- I remember years ago, in my late teens/early 20's, my diet was horrendous. Just thinking about it now makes me want to cringe, that I survived on a steady intake of carbs and sugar. At the time, I was lucky to have an incredibly quick metabolism, so it never showed physically, but showed only in the fact that I was often tired and emotional and and not at all in touch with the alignment of my body.
Friday, I got great exercise by biking all day, and then changing into my night clothes and going dancing at a club where Six Degrees Records was having their thang and M was the DJ. C and I didn't drink or gossip, we just danced for about 2 straight hours. The music was great and the energy was infectious. I like that my lifestyle in itself is becoming healthier. The choices I make, the things that now interest me are much more conducive to leading a healthy lifestyle, both mentally and physically.
When you find equilibrium internally, it manifests itself around you, too. Life is being really good to me, because it's all that I will accept at this point. ;)
When I was younger, I was prettier, but I had NO self esteem at all to speak of and NO boundaries. Now I do, and I am learning more and more each day what it means to have each of those attributes.
I am being good to myself.
I am learning what it means to be me, what it means to be alive and interconnected with other people in this world. I am checking in, really feeling all of my feelings, and trying as much as I can to be present in everything that I do. To me, this is what it means to care for yourself and create your personal boundaries in respect for everything that creates you.
I have also been meditating again, and doing this subliminal trance CD called "Dynamic Intuition" that hypnotizes me... it's pretty cool.
The journey to understand life and find oneself never ends during one's lifetime. I think that's what makes life at the same time a precious gift and a lesson book incredible beyond our imagination.
Friday, I got great exercise by biking all day, and then changing into my night clothes and going dancing at a club where Six Degrees Records was having their thang and M was the DJ. C and I didn't drink or gossip, we just danced for about 2 straight hours. The music was great and the energy was infectious. I like that my lifestyle in itself is becoming healthier. The choices I make, the things that now interest me are much more conducive to leading a healthy lifestyle, both mentally and physically.
When you find equilibrium internally, it manifests itself around you, too. Life is being really good to me, because it's all that I will accept at this point. ;)
When I was younger, I was prettier, but I had NO self esteem at all to speak of and NO boundaries. Now I do, and I am learning more and more each day what it means to have each of those attributes.
I am being good to myself.
I am learning what it means to be me, what it means to be alive and interconnected with other people in this world. I am checking in, really feeling all of my feelings, and trying as much as I can to be present in everything that I do. To me, this is what it means to care for yourself and create your personal boundaries in respect for everything that creates you.
I have also been meditating again, and doing this subliminal trance CD called "Dynamic Intuition" that hypnotizes me... it's pretty cool.
The journey to understand life and find oneself never ends during one's lifetime. I think that's what makes life at the same time a precious gift and a lesson book incredible beyond our imagination.