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the entry before this one... I wrote it a year ago. and something happened and it wouldn't post and I lost the whole entry. I re-wrote it real quick and idk what happened? It just didnt post. til now, trying to write this one, a box came up and said "blah blah from saved drafts?" and i hit yes and voila the entry appeared.
But i'll get more into that subject later.
As for now, i just need to vent. this past week has been so fucking stressful and i don't even know why. nothing in particular happened that set it off. The past 2 weeks I've been out on medical leave due to wrist pains. didn't think that would bother me (c'mon 2 weeks vacation?? not to mention that i was on vacation the week before. that's awesome right?)I did miss grooming, but I couldn't help think about all my regulars going to other groomers and it made me worry a little. (like, if they liked them more than me) Also, im pretty stretched for cash this month. Next month me and derek are getting our own place and i need to come up with 500 something for the deposit by oct 10th (move in date!) and manage to pay rent and bills. Did i mention its just a month away? my paycheck today was $190
and i need to pack still.
but even so... i dont think thats enough to make me act the way i am. im even more impatient than normal and just fuckin bitter. and the worse part is is that im taking it all out on derek. So far, its been almost everyday this week. He'll probably wanna break up with me if this keeps up..
I dont know the source but it needs to stop.
Unfortunently, the only thing that helps is smoking weed. which is fine, but i feel that i NEED it to be calm. not just to calm me down, as if its the only way for me to become calm. I feel like im constantly pms-ing. but im not on my period.
could i be pregnant? or maybe i need an exorcism? i hope its the exorcism......
help me
But i'll get more into that subject later.
As for now, i just need to vent. this past week has been so fucking stressful and i don't even know why. nothing in particular happened that set it off. The past 2 weeks I've been out on medical leave due to wrist pains. didn't think that would bother me (c'mon 2 weeks vacation?? not to mention that i was on vacation the week before. that's awesome right?)I did miss grooming, but I couldn't help think about all my regulars going to other groomers and it made me worry a little. (like, if they liked them more than me) Also, im pretty stretched for cash this month. Next month me and derek are getting our own place and i need to come up with 500 something for the deposit by oct 10th (move in date!) and manage to pay rent and bills. Did i mention its just a month away? my paycheck today was $190
and i need to pack still.
but even so... i dont think thats enough to make me act the way i am. im even more impatient than normal and just fuckin bitter. and the worse part is is that im taking it all out on derek. So far, its been almost everyday this week. He'll probably wanna break up with me if this keeps up..
I dont know the source but it needs to stop.
Unfortunently, the only thing that helps is smoking weed. which is fine, but i feel that i NEED it to be calm. not just to calm me down, as if its the only way for me to become calm. I feel like im constantly pms-ing. but im not on my period.
could i be pregnant? or maybe i need an exorcism? i hope its the exorcism......
help me