wtf
why is it that when things are confusing and stressful to begin with someone throws a curveball at you and makes it worse??
so ok the ron situation...not getting any better. still haven't heard from him and i dont think im going to be. i think he thinks i want to be all buddy buddy and like be with him, when really i just want certain things from him. but i cant tell him that if i dont talk to him.
so anyway. so last nite i get online jordan starts talking to me and asking me what do i think of him as a friend. as soon as he asks that i think uh oh. and i was right. he was like i really like you and i want to try a relationship with you. i tried to tell him i dont want thtat right now. i dont want another relationship right now. i have way to much going on. im interested in a couple ppl and im leaving in 2 months but he's like it would be good. we would be good together. i felt terrible because i do like him but i just dont want to do the relationship thing again at this point. i hate when ppl do this.
and of course matt is just being matt. he's toying iwht me and i hate it. i was talking to him and chad about this last nite on our walk. and matt was being all retarded and crap. grr! it's like i think he likes me but he just likes to toy with me. i hate it. blah boys suck. im out. much love.
so ok the ron situation...not getting any better. still haven't heard from him and i dont think im going to be. i think he thinks i want to be all buddy buddy and like be with him, when really i just want certain things from him. but i cant tell him that if i dont talk to him.
so anyway. so last nite i get online jordan starts talking to me and asking me what do i think of him as a friend. as soon as he asks that i think uh oh. and i was right. he was like i really like you and i want to try a relationship with you. i tried to tell him i dont want thtat right now. i dont want another relationship right now. i have way to much going on. im interested in a couple ppl and im leaving in 2 months but he's like it would be good. we would be good together. i felt terrible because i do like him but i just dont want to do the relationship thing again at this point. i hate when ppl do this.
and of course matt is just being matt. he's toying iwht me and i hate it. i was talking to him and chad about this last nite on our walk. and matt was being all retarded and crap. grr! it's like i think he likes me but he just likes to toy with me. i hate it. blah boys suck. im out. much love.