Misogynist much?
So, I'm slowly but surely growing to hate females more and more. I don't know if it's just that I'm becomming more of a self-serving bastard (because that's surely the case in some ways), but I just keep finding myself more and more disinterested in getting personally involved with girls.
My views on things really have changed lately. I no longer desire to be married any time in the forseeable future. I no longer want to have kids in the forseeable future. I don't even want to have a girlfriend move in with me! I just want to live all alone. And when there's something that I don't like I'll change it. Nobody to run it past, nobody to give their opinion on it; no. Fuck 'em all.
Sex is a stupid reason to be involved with someone. Love is a stupid reason as well. You know how you think you're in love now, and you thought you were in love when you were 15? Think of how different things were to you then. That's how your dumb ass is going to look at yourself when you're 30. Sure, it CAN work. But why? Live your life and go for your goals! Don't get bogged down in somebody else's troubles.
I'm making no sense. I suppose I should back up.
I've made a decision to worry about myself from now on. Not to worry about girls or other distractions. I'm planning for my future and taking steps and making sacrifices to get me to where I want to be in life. Anything that isn't in that picture I am not letting in. No girlfriends, no kids, no marriage, no 'lets move in together'... No. I'm going to live my life for ME because nobody else is going to live it for me.
I'm so tired of wasting my emotional energy in bad investments. You put part of yourself into someone else and they chew it up and spit it out. Part of me even wants to sink to that level, but there's no need to degrade myself just because there are a lot of women out there spreading a bad reputation.
I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of failure. I'm tired of my life and some things need to change.
I've been out of work for about 6 weeks. I just finished my first week at the new job. In the meantime I had to sell a bunch of gear. Not happy about it. In fact, I'm in the red right now because I decided to honor my word and stay the 3rd month with Cole and Max (my roommates) even though I never signed a contract and could have moved back home for free. I've decided my word only has value if I back it up. I am in complete control of who I am and what I create.
Along with this and a few negative experiences is this bubbling misogyny inside of me. I know, not all girls are attention-seeking gold digging whores. But a lot are as well. And frankly I'm tired of gambling at that table. I'm going to put my resources into something where I can feel productive and proud of myself. I'll come back to this table when the time is right. Until then, I'm really not interested in relationships. It's a distraction. Fuck it.
Alright... I'm done here. I'm alive. Working for a great company now; I've finally got a good job with good pay and excellent benefits. I'm going to succeed.
My views on things really have changed lately. I no longer desire to be married any time in the forseeable future. I no longer want to have kids in the forseeable future. I don't even want to have a girlfriend move in with me! I just want to live all alone. And when there's something that I don't like I'll change it. Nobody to run it past, nobody to give their opinion on it; no. Fuck 'em all.
Sex is a stupid reason to be involved with someone. Love is a stupid reason as well. You know how you think you're in love now, and you thought you were in love when you were 15? Think of how different things were to you then. That's how your dumb ass is going to look at yourself when you're 30. Sure, it CAN work. But why? Live your life and go for your goals! Don't get bogged down in somebody else's troubles.
I'm making no sense. I suppose I should back up.
I've made a decision to worry about myself from now on. Not to worry about girls or other distractions. I'm planning for my future and taking steps and making sacrifices to get me to where I want to be in life. Anything that isn't in that picture I am not letting in. No girlfriends, no kids, no marriage, no 'lets move in together'... No. I'm going to live my life for ME because nobody else is going to live it for me.
I'm so tired of wasting my emotional energy in bad investments. You put part of yourself into someone else and they chew it up and spit it out. Part of me even wants to sink to that level, but there's no need to degrade myself just because there are a lot of women out there spreading a bad reputation.
I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of failure. I'm tired of my life and some things need to change.
I've been out of work for about 6 weeks. I just finished my first week at the new job. In the meantime I had to sell a bunch of gear. Not happy about it. In fact, I'm in the red right now because I decided to honor my word and stay the 3rd month with Cole and Max (my roommates) even though I never signed a contract and could have moved back home for free. I've decided my word only has value if I back it up. I am in complete control of who I am and what I create.
Along with this and a few negative experiences is this bubbling misogyny inside of me. I know, not all girls are attention-seeking gold digging whores. But a lot are as well. And frankly I'm tired of gambling at that table. I'm going to put my resources into something where I can feel productive and proud of myself. I'll come back to this table when the time is right. Until then, I'm really not interested in relationships. It's a distraction. Fuck it.
Alright... I'm done here. I'm alive. Working for a great company now; I've finally got a good job with good pay and excellent benefits. I'm going to succeed.