dont cry tonight
today was one of those day where you want to be happy but you are also sad. today is my oldest nieces birthday she is 6 but it is also my grandmas who passed away almost three years ago. It didnt bother me so much even when i went to the cemetary right now i got kind of depressed. I guess it is just everything piling up both jobs are stressing me out, wondering if I am gonna have money to pay my bills, school, me and miguels big fight a couple weeks ago is still kind of bothering me i guess everyone has one but I didnt like where that one was headed we wroked it all out and shit but I get very bad anxiety so its not helping, then that idiot showing up . Maybe I need some time to myslef like just one day no work, school, family or boyfriend just time to me. I try to do it at home but I end up haveing to clean and shit the only time is when I sleep even then I dont get much of it or I wake up at odd hours. next week I have my paid vacation at kmart and I start school again maybe I will take a day off from the salon and treat myself to something.