rainy days and mondays always get me down...
EDC was amazing... more fun when i wasnt grounded but i did have an amazing time and met tons of cool people. thanks to everyone who made my first massive what it was. im SO happy that bryan and i didnt split up and get lost. we were together practically every second. :) *BIG SMILE* i'm glad i saw tara, skrappy, gumdrop, maze, royal, touch, smiles... EVERYONE!!! you all made my night
i saw the 2 people i didnt want to see, but, NO DRAMA!!! WOOHOO!!!
Fallout Boy is back on the happy list. its cool that he sees whats up.
yesterday was... bad... except for the morning. i got to wake up next to the love of my life. he took care of me. but then i decided not to go to band practice with him, like i said i would. so...i suck. drama drama drama. i freaked out for no reason... and his car is dying (his breaks went out) so hes in upland and we were on the phone fighting and my mom came in and i was crashing hardcore and she heard me say i wanted to kill myself and that i was crashing and all this shit... and she yelled at me and tried to tell me bryan was bad for me when hes the only thing thats helping me and keeping me sane. hes the only thing making me try in life... hes the reason i want to get my life back on track. so FUCK HER! thats right... fuck you mom. i cant wait for this year to go by so i can get the fuck out of that house.
bryan, thankfully, sat and waited on the phone for the... what felt like an eternity (probably like 30 minutes), and he heard every word my mother said. shes ridiculous... honestly. hes the only one whos heard it first hand... but im thankful he did so he can have a better grasp at whats going on, so he can keep me strong.
bryan is my life. i dont know what id do without him. and yesterday was BAD, but knowing i would see him today makes it all worth while. i cant wait to have his arms wrapped around me. i cant wait to kiss him and look into his eyes. i... i just cant wait. it feels like i havent seen him in years... its only been one day, but... *sigh* i just cant wait.
TILL DEATH DO US PART
mrs. xmas macabre
p.s. working is lame
i feel like i'm missing out on summer
and no, the money isnt worth it
stupid workers comp people didnt even look thoroughly at my hand or ask me how it hurt or when it hurt or how i could/couldnt move it. they just took an x-ray and said i was fine, but if you look at my hand it isnt fine and i can feel the bones rubbing against each other when i move it
lame
I MISS BRYAN
*tears*
i saw the 2 people i didnt want to see, but, NO DRAMA!!! WOOHOO!!!
Fallout Boy is back on the happy list. its cool that he sees whats up.
yesterday was... bad... except for the morning. i got to wake up next to the love of my life. he took care of me. but then i decided not to go to band practice with him, like i said i would. so...i suck. drama drama drama. i freaked out for no reason... and his car is dying (his breaks went out) so hes in upland and we were on the phone fighting and my mom came in and i was crashing hardcore and she heard me say i wanted to kill myself and that i was crashing and all this shit... and she yelled at me and tried to tell me bryan was bad for me when hes the only thing thats helping me and keeping me sane. hes the only thing making me try in life... hes the reason i want to get my life back on track. so FUCK HER! thats right... fuck you mom. i cant wait for this year to go by so i can get the fuck out of that house.
bryan, thankfully, sat and waited on the phone for the... what felt like an eternity (probably like 30 minutes), and he heard every word my mother said. shes ridiculous... honestly. hes the only one whos heard it first hand... but im thankful he did so he can have a better grasp at whats going on, so he can keep me strong.
bryan is my life. i dont know what id do without him. and yesterday was BAD, but knowing i would see him today makes it all worth while. i cant wait to have his arms wrapped around me. i cant wait to kiss him and look into his eyes. i... i just cant wait. it feels like i havent seen him in years... its only been one day, but... *sigh* i just cant wait.
TILL DEATH DO US PART
mrs. xmas macabre
p.s. working is lame
i feel like i'm missing out on summer
and no, the money isnt worth it
stupid workers comp people didnt even look thoroughly at my hand or ask me how it hurt or when it hurt or how i could/couldnt move it. they just took an x-ray and said i was fine, but if you look at my hand it isnt fine and i can feel the bones rubbing against each other when i move it
lame
I MISS BRYAN
*tears*