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Some day, one might feel that the whole weight of the world is resting on one's shoulder...
I'm writing this at about 2 in the morning, a Saturday night where I had maybe a little too much to drink.
Even though, I feel so low right now, even rugby cannot give me any happiness or even reason to go out. Pressure at work has became so strong I can hardly stand it. The fact is, I don't even know if I will still be in the USA come 2007. Maybe I will be fired before that. And I don't even want to think about all the mess I have to strengthen up before I leave...
To be clearer, if I don't get positive result in 2 months, my project is gone, and probably me with it.
OK I'm writing this after having spent a f@$$%% week, and having a f@#$% bad Saturday, where rugby could not even help me lighten up my morose mood. and tomorrow Sunday, I will spend it mostly in the lab working trying to get this f#$%^ project working. needless to say I really wonder what the f#$% I am useful for, and who the f$%&^ am I. this sh#$$ really rots my mind, I feel less than nothing, nothing, useless human being sucking up valuable oxygen for people who deserve it...
man, I really have it bad tonight, I don't see anything that would pump me up bad. Please, all of you, pray for me, I f#$#$% need it right now. I never felt so lonely as of today. it's 'do or die' time, and this time, it really doesn't look good. I have no self esteem left, I really need help.
anybody? please??
By the way, last week, I celebrated my one year at E..., my one year in Oregon. It really looks like it's only gonna be one year.
Man, I feel so low, can anybody help me get back to myself? HELP ME!!!!!
I'm writing this at about 2 in the morning, a Saturday night where I had maybe a little too much to drink.
Even though, I feel so low right now, even rugby cannot give me any happiness or even reason to go out. Pressure at work has became so strong I can hardly stand it. The fact is, I don't even know if I will still be in the USA come 2007. Maybe I will be fired before that. And I don't even want to think about all the mess I have to strengthen up before I leave...
To be clearer, if I don't get positive result in 2 months, my project is gone, and probably me with it.
OK I'm writing this after having spent a f@$$%% week, and having a f@#$% bad Saturday, where rugby could not even help me lighten up my morose mood. and tomorrow Sunday, I will spend it mostly in the lab working trying to get this f#$%^ project working. needless to say I really wonder what the f#$% I am useful for, and who the f$%&^ am I. this sh#$$ really rots my mind, I feel less than nothing, nothing, useless human being sucking up valuable oxygen for people who deserve it...
man, I really have it bad tonight, I don't see anything that would pump me up bad. Please, all of you, pray for me, I f#$#$% need it right now. I never felt so lonely as of today. it's 'do or die' time, and this time, it really doesn't look good. I have no self esteem left, I really need help.
anybody? please??
By the way, last week, I celebrated my one year at E..., my one year in Oregon. It really looks like it's only gonna be one year.
Man, I feel so low, can anybody help me get back to myself? HELP ME!!!!!