yeah i'm horny... deal with it
gosh. i haven't gotten any action in a while. i don't need sex or anything but i would like some effection... from some one who feels the same way and not the same way for just the time we're together. we had the playfulness but i knew he didn't really feel that way. he did at the time but...it wouldn't last long. it was so hard to push him away. we don't even hug anymore. or say 'i care about you'. it hurts . i'm so empty. i can't share my feelings with people who don't want them.
what hurts even more is that i was talking to dave, because i have no other friends, and he said that if zane had any feelings at all for me he would get me something on valentines day. and i got nothing. i don't wanna lose him. but i don't don't wanna wait for him if hes not coming back. i did that last time and every day i would wait in anticipation.. hoping he'd come back or even call me.
i guess i'll have no body after this. just me and myself... and about 300 cats who i will name by letters and then letters with a number to follow b/c its just easier that way.
what hurts even more is that i was talking to dave, because i have no other friends, and he said that if zane had any feelings at all for me he would get me something on valentines day. and i got nothing. i don't wanna lose him. but i don't don't wanna wait for him if hes not coming back. i did that last time and every day i would wait in anticipation.. hoping he'd come back or even call me.
i guess i'll have no body after this. just me and myself... and about 300 cats who i will name by letters and then letters with a number to follow b/c its just easier that way.