2005 in review!!!!
omg so wow i havent posted since september! so i figure i should update now that its the new year and all!!!
i cant believe 2005 flew by so damn quick, alot of things happened, good and bad, so here goes even though its a little late.
~lets start with sum of the good things that happened,
Homocamping was fucking amazing, one of the best so far, this brought me closer to some people who i will never forget and know will be in my life for a long ass time, like Irene and Tarra and Lori. These 3 girls made my summer with all the hanging out and talking and going out to the bar and dancing and partying all night long. Thanx to everyone who made camping so amazing. Tarra i love you so much. you have helped me through alot even if you dont know it, all the little chats on aim, or even the fieldtrips to canada or menjos have made such an impact on how amazing most of summer of 2005 was.
I kinda met someone and im so happy when im around him. Just waking up next to him makes me smile. No we arent dating or anything but hopefully something will come of it because i really care for him, and glad hes ok after his accident. Thanks to all who wished him well, hes doing great.
School this past semester sucked, i didnt have my head completely in it because im just not happy here anymore. Alot of people who were close to me either left or just drifted apart. I just didnt feel it this past semester. I did however make some great new friends among the KTE girls and am happy about that. This coming semester im gonna tame myself down and work my ass off in my classes to raise my grades. Ive let myself down this semester and plan to bring myself back up no matter what it takes.
Friendships have gotten stronger with many people like Melissa, Ryan, Ernest, Kirby, Lori and any others that have made me feel like i belong and i can feel real around them and not worry what they are gonna say if i try something new. I know that i actually have a framily now and i love it and wouldnt change my relationships with them for anything.
~now for the things that arent so good,
Some of my relationships with people i care about have diminished to almost nothing. It sucks to say but im done trying, its to hard and its worn me down so much and people have seen this. The people who have seen this arent even the ones that i wish would see how much it hurts me that they dont make an effort. I can only do so much and ive hit that limit.
I got an MIP which im not to worried about, i really didnt care its my first one and my only one. Istart probation the 18th i think, cant wait for that one. I hate SVSU, i got kicked out of my dorm and fined $50 for saying "SVSU sucks", but i guess its not to bad seeing as i got moved to a house on campus and now have my own room and a full bathroom and kitchen and living room.
The biggest impact on who i am today and what i have become passed away. My grandpa passed away 2-5-05 and took me for ever to come to terms with and im still not fully there and dont know if i ever will be. He was the most important person to me and noone will ever fill that piece of my heart like he did. I loveyou PAPA and always will. I owe you for giving me a life and raising me and everything youve done for me.
~Im content where i am right now, new people have come into my life who have made me smile and laugh more then i have in along ass time. Theres alot more that happened this past year but these are the things that best put how my year went. Other things like DEMF, Cedar Point, random parties, movie nights, and drives with great friends have brought 2005 to a close.
2006 is here and it came kind of fast, but i had an amazing New Years with great friends like Ryan, Ernest, Eric, Angel, Ashley, and others but i seriously cant remember, haha!!!!! I hope this is just a good indication of what the year is going to bring my way.