AMAZING!!!!
I have never had so many issues in my life. mainly money issues right now. I just dont know what to do anymore. I also know that I have been changing. I know its a good thing and what I am going through is normal. I can't help but wonder if all this changing is really good though. I thought when you fall in love and think about having this person for the rest of your life they are suppose to love you for you. Why the hell would they make you change? It just doesn't make sence. But at the same time I can see how I did need to change somewhat because as sad as this is about to sound. I was even starting to annoy myself with everything that I did. I am glad that I dont do a lot of it anymore, but one thing I just can't let go. It is really hard. I think I finally do it and then it starts to rear its ugly head again. But I am trying because i am really in love with him and i know that I want to be with him the rest of my life. NO MATTER WHAT!!!! Thats about it. Nothing else really to do but hurry up sit and wait. One more thing that is kind of bugging me is...What if this person is leading me on? I know he would never do that, but still kind of can't help but wonder. stupid things in the back of my head.