whats going on...
In the past few months since I wrote a real entry alot has happened. I have been trying to get things back on track, but realizing that I am slipping very quickly down a very steep slope into a depression that I just might not come out of right away without commiting myself first. That is definately in all honesty the way that it is going. Now I am really trying to better myself so this doesn't happen. And of course it doesn't help that I am a jealous person and scared shitless of losing the people I love so I start to get jealous or scared of everything. The steps I have taken to try and make myself better:
1. I got my own place. Now when I say my own place I mean only me. I dont have to worry about anyone else paying bills or taking food or not doing something. I love it!!!! I can watch TV where ever I want and I can even run around naked if I want (hahaha but I never do...or shall I say hardly ever). Plus I have laundry in my building that I dont have to pay for. So no more spending $10 on laundry every other week. Along with having to travel there and wait around for it to be done. I am so glad to be saving that money every other week. I know it may not seem like much, but it does add up.
2. My job is going really well. I just had a meeting with my boss and another manager and got a raise. Along with telling me that they are very impressed with me and hope that my proformance keeps up. On top of that I was also told that I would be getting over time everyday during the summer due to the high volumes and they want to keep me on the phones.
This is also another really posative thing going on...
3. I got a kitten about a week ago. He is the cutest thing ever. A bit shy around everyone but he is really warming up. And he makes me really happy. So I really can't complain.
4. And last but not least I was talking with my mother and got the phone number of the theropist that she went to. He really helped her out with some things and I really want to get better. I know I need to, because I can't keep on driving everyone I love away. My health insurance kicks in April first and that is the first phone call I am making!!!
I am actually feeling a lot better after just saying all this. It is a great plan and I plan to follow through with it. I need to do this for me otherwise I am going to end up in the nut house. And that is no lie!!! I love you all and thank you for your support through these times. They are going to be tough and they are going to test our bonds, but when we make it through they will be soo much stronger.
Thats about it for now. I shall write more at some point.
1. I got my own place. Now when I say my own place I mean only me. I dont have to worry about anyone else paying bills or taking food or not doing something. I love it!!!! I can watch TV where ever I want and I can even run around naked if I want (hahaha but I never do...or shall I say hardly ever). Plus I have laundry in my building that I dont have to pay for. So no more spending $10 on laundry every other week. Along with having to travel there and wait around for it to be done. I am so glad to be saving that money every other week. I know it may not seem like much, but it does add up.
2. My job is going really well. I just had a meeting with my boss and another manager and got a raise. Along with telling me that they are very impressed with me and hope that my proformance keeps up. On top of that I was also told that I would be getting over time everyday during the summer due to the high volumes and they want to keep me on the phones.
This is also another really posative thing going on...
3. I got a kitten about a week ago. He is the cutest thing ever. A bit shy around everyone but he is really warming up. And he makes me really happy. So I really can't complain.
4. And last but not least I was talking with my mother and got the phone number of the theropist that she went to. He really helped her out with some things and I really want to get better. I know I need to, because I can't keep on driving everyone I love away. My health insurance kicks in April first and that is the first phone call I am making!!!
I am actually feeling a lot better after just saying all this. It is a great plan and I plan to follow through with it. I need to do this for me otherwise I am going to end up in the nut house. And that is no lie!!! I love you all and thank you for your support through these times. They are going to be tough and they are going to test our bonds, but when we make it through they will be soo much stronger.
Thats about it for now. I shall write more at some point.