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cool weekend. but it's april and all i want to do is go to italy and play outside and not do work.
too bad school consumes my life and i can't make decisions and i feel like everything's out of control. i hate that feeling. i just need to get a grip and decide what's important to me.
it's super weird when you go from being with someone constantly for more than half a year and then never see them and are replaced by someone else in their life. it kills and tears you apart inside, even though you may not have feelings for this person anymore. i'm getting better at accepting it though beause i know i played a large part in this person's life and hopefully changed them and opened their eyes up to things they never saw before.
i've started trying to live my life by the "everything happens for a reason" philosophy. sometimes it's very hard to see the reason right away, but i think i'm finally seeing some reasoning in past events. it makes everything much easier and doesn't put blame on anyone. i like it.
one of my youth leaders went to florida last week and visited one of the families we helped during my mission trip. larry and his wife betty and lost their porch in hurricaine charlie, and we rebuilt this room for them and also put a new roof on. the pictures ron (my youth leader) took astounded me. to think that i was a part of this, that i helped rebuild this family's home after a tradgedy is unbelievable. he also said they remember all of our names, and specifically asked how i was doing. me....out of 20 other kids that were there on this mission trip, these people remembered me. i hd an impact on their lives, and it's mind blowing because they changed my life and i never imaged the impact i would have on them. how amazing it would be to join the peace corps, or some other organization that helps people after tradgedies like this. all these people see is you reaching out to help them, and they don't even realize that they very well may change you forever.
this was just meant to be an entry about the weekend...wow i'm ADD.
time for homework then field hockey....byeee
too bad school consumes my life and i can't make decisions and i feel like everything's out of control. i hate that feeling. i just need to get a grip and decide what's important to me.
it's super weird when you go from being with someone constantly for more than half a year and then never see them and are replaced by someone else in their life. it kills and tears you apart inside, even though you may not have feelings for this person anymore. i'm getting better at accepting it though beause i know i played a large part in this person's life and hopefully changed them and opened their eyes up to things they never saw before.
i've started trying to live my life by the "everything happens for a reason" philosophy. sometimes it's very hard to see the reason right away, but i think i'm finally seeing some reasoning in past events. it makes everything much easier and doesn't put blame on anyone. i like it.
one of my youth leaders went to florida last week and visited one of the families we helped during my mission trip. larry and his wife betty and lost their porch in hurricaine charlie, and we rebuilt this room for them and also put a new roof on. the pictures ron (my youth leader) took astounded me. to think that i was a part of this, that i helped rebuild this family's home after a tradgedy is unbelievable. he also said they remember all of our names, and specifically asked how i was doing. me....out of 20 other kids that were there on this mission trip, these people remembered me. i hd an impact on their lives, and it's mind blowing because they changed my life and i never imaged the impact i would have on them. how amazing it would be to join the peace corps, or some other organization that helps people after tradgedies like this. all these people see is you reaching out to help them, and they don't even realize that they very well may change you forever.
this was just meant to be an entry about the weekend...wow i'm ADD.
time for homework then field hockey....byeee