Sometimes I wonder
What's the point? What's the point in doing this LJ thing again?
I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit.
Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea. I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.
But overall I failed.
The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.
I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ.
I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...
So what's the point?
Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this still worthwhile? Has it ever been?
I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...
I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit.
Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea. I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.
But overall I failed.
The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.
I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ.
I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...
So what's the point?
Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this still worthwhile? Has it ever been?
I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...