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last night i was laying in bed, its centered right below my big window, and the breeze was coming in and just flowing over me, and every few minutes the wind would blow the rain that sprinkled through the window and onto my face and bare shoulders, i just felt so dead and alone until i felt the cool droplets on my skin.
and i was strangely okay with it. if okay is the word.
andrew told me i was afriad of letting myself be seen as weak. hes right, i dont like to let my weakness shine through. but i have weaknesses like everyone else. and this weekend they are becoming more prominent. but how can i feel so low and feel so okay with it at the same time? is it because i am actually moving forward and getting better? or am i just so used to having this inside me that i act like its not even there?
only time will tell i suppose.
and i was strangely okay with it. if okay is the word.
andrew told me i was afriad of letting myself be seen as weak. hes right, i dont like to let my weakness shine through. but i have weaknesses like everyone else. and this weekend they are becoming more prominent. but how can i feel so low and feel so okay with it at the same time? is it because i am actually moving forward and getting better? or am i just so used to having this inside me that i act like its not even there?
only time will tell i suppose.