the consequences begin
so the new school year has started
at the begining it loooked like it was gonna be a good one or at the very least having a better social life than last year.
it isn't and right now it sorta sucks
I'm an ra so that means I have to document certian things
and it sucks it essentially means you have to rat on your friends when they are doing something that breaks the rules and they really don't get it and I just think that by the end of the year no one will really car for me cus I did my job. So yet another sucky year of school.
so again I've given up on having friends or dating or being seen as just another student. I don't know why Gd put me in this situation and it somewhat sucks... I'm just frustrated with it. I want to be normal and do what normal people do and ot have to worry about it
today I had a fleeting thought of just giving up on my morals and just having fun. I mean God forgives right? But in the long run I don't think it'll be for the best. This is yet another trial that God has put me in for a reason that I don't yet understand and I wish I did. I really need this job it pays for my room and board for college and it does have it good points... I just wish people understood more.
at the begining it loooked like it was gonna be a good one or at the very least having a better social life than last year.
it isn't and right now it sorta sucks
I'm an ra so that means I have to document certian things
and it sucks it essentially means you have to rat on your friends when they are doing something that breaks the rules and they really don't get it and I just think that by the end of the year no one will really car for me cus I did my job. So yet another sucky year of school.
so again I've given up on having friends or dating or being seen as just another student. I don't know why Gd put me in this situation and it somewhat sucks... I'm just frustrated with it. I want to be normal and do what normal people do and ot have to worry about it
today I had a fleeting thought of just giving up on my morals and just having fun. I mean God forgives right? But in the long run I don't think it'll be for the best. This is yet another trial that God has put me in for a reason that I don't yet understand and I wish I did. I really need this job it pays for my room and board for college and it does have it good points... I just wish people understood more.