the only thing im afraid of is that my mind won't last....
the hardest part is dreaming...i dream like nothing has changed....and then wake up every morning expecting to be by you...and im not, and it still kills me.
one thing im fucking sick and tired of is people telling me to move on, get over it, start dating again... FUCK YOU ALL! if i hear that from one more person i'll lose it!!! You don't think i wanna move on, you think i like feeling this way...its hard to start dating again when no one else compares...when you know you've had the best you could possibly imagine, even more then i ever imagined, everything else just seems so dull and boring and not worth it, and no matter how hard i try to move i just can't, your on a pedastal so high in my mind that it scares me....am i going to be like this for the rest of time...everyone i meet from here on out isn't even gonna get a chance? thats not fair to me or anyone else....and its all my fault.....i dont know what to do anymore....i try to go out, i try to meet people...but i dont want to give up...but i also dont wanna give up on you...theres something in the back of my mind that tells me that this isnt the end...maybe its false hopes of a fool...but i just can't do it...
i never asked to love you. but im glad that i do
until next time. icy
SjC.
one thing im fucking sick and tired of is people telling me to move on, get over it, start dating again... FUCK YOU ALL! if i hear that from one more person i'll lose it!!! You don't think i wanna move on, you think i like feeling this way...its hard to start dating again when no one else compares...when you know you've had the best you could possibly imagine, even more then i ever imagined, everything else just seems so dull and boring and not worth it, and no matter how hard i try to move i just can't, your on a pedastal so high in my mind that it scares me....am i going to be like this for the rest of time...everyone i meet from here on out isn't even gonna get a chance? thats not fair to me or anyone else....and its all my fault.....i dont know what to do anymore....i try to go out, i try to meet people...but i dont want to give up...but i also dont wanna give up on you...theres something in the back of my mind that tells me that this isnt the end...maybe its false hopes of a fool...but i just can't do it...
i never asked to love you. but im glad that i do
until next time. icy
SjC.