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I have to block out thoughts of you so i dont lose my head, they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed. Dropping little reels of tape to remind me im alone, playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home. Theres a burning in my pride a nervous bleeding in my brain, an ounce of peace is all i want for you, will you never call again? Will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face, and will you never try to reach me...hate me today, hate me tomorrow, hate me for all the things i did do for you. Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, that one accomplishment ya helped me with, the one thing that always made us fight is the one thing i wont touch again, in my sick way i wanna thank you for holding my head up late at night, while i was busy waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate, you made me compliment myself when it was way tohard to take. So i'll drive so fuckin far away that i'll never cross your mind, and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.
I'm kicking shadows on the street for every mistake i ever made, and like a baby boy i never was a man till i saw your blue eyes cry and i held your face in my hands, and how you would say make it go away, just make just make a smile come back and shine just like how it used to be, and she'd look and whisper how can you do this to me....?
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, that one accomplishment ya helped me with, the one thing that always made us fight is the one thing i wont touch again, in my sick way i wanna thank you for holding my head up late at night, while i was busy waging wars on myself you were trying to stop the fight. You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate, you made me compliment myself when it was way tohard to take. So i'll drive so fuckin far away that i'll never cross your mind, and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind.
I'm kicking shadows on the street for every mistake i ever made, and like a baby boy i never was a man till i saw your blue eyes cry and i held your face in my hands, and how you would say make it go away, just make just make a smile come back and shine just like how it used to be, and she'd look and whisper how can you do this to me....?