Long time no fucking talk.
I havent writen in so damn long aha sorry. Ive been real busy with friends, the boyfriend(ex) and family I guess.
Ive been dealing with shit on my own alot latly. I went to a party something horrible happened. I think Im healing from it. It has made me alot stronger, also its made me really scared. I trust no one now and the one I did trust fucked me over so bad.
His name is Jeremy. I fell for him pretty hard and really fast. I thought he felt the same for me. We started dating Feb. 2nd and we broke up April 6th. I left him because he kept hurting me and I couldnt go threw it anymore. He would always be flirting with some other girl. He would always get me to think I did something wrong. He'd always turn everything around on me. It was sooo great in the begining he was my everything and I was his. He cheated on me 3 weeks later, I took him back, he told me he'd never do it again and that he loves me. I shouldve never taken him back. He just hurt me 10 times more, He flirted and ask some other girl to marry him. So many people told me about him and all my friends hated him after like the first month I should have listened. I kept telling my self "Sam things will get better between you and him. Just push threw it all. Dont give up". He made me give up I told everyone I wouldnt back down til it killed me. Well it did. I hate giving up but I just couldnt do it anymore he needed to deside if he wants to be with me and ONLY me. I gave him a week but I dont think Im going to take him back. I dont think I can handle going threw this shit anymore. This Katie girl he likes doent even fucking like him back aaha way to go. I find that sooo funny. Im not in love with him I tricked my self to believe so but dont get me wrong I do for sure love him. I miss him alot.
Im doing better with the Katie thing. Im starting to realize she isnt coming back and shes happy. I just wish I could let her go bt its too hard for me.
Ive been arrested 2 times since the 23rd ahah for the same thing drinking woo go me. Im so dumb some times but whateverr Im over it.
<333 much love fuckers
Ive been dealing with shit on my own alot latly. I went to a party something horrible happened. I think Im healing from it. It has made me alot stronger, also its made me really scared. I trust no one now and the one I did trust fucked me over so bad.
His name is Jeremy. I fell for him pretty hard and really fast. I thought he felt the same for me. We started dating Feb. 2nd and we broke up April 6th. I left him because he kept hurting me and I couldnt go threw it anymore. He would always be flirting with some other girl. He would always get me to think I did something wrong. He'd always turn everything around on me. It was sooo great in the begining he was my everything and I was his. He cheated on me 3 weeks later, I took him back, he told me he'd never do it again and that he loves me. I shouldve never taken him back. He just hurt me 10 times more, He flirted and ask some other girl to marry him. So many people told me about him and all my friends hated him after like the first month I should have listened. I kept telling my self "Sam things will get better between you and him. Just push threw it all. Dont give up". He made me give up I told everyone I wouldnt back down til it killed me. Well it did. I hate giving up but I just couldnt do it anymore he needed to deside if he wants to be with me and ONLY me. I gave him a week but I dont think Im going to take him back. I dont think I can handle going threw this shit anymore. This Katie girl he likes doent even fucking like him back aaha way to go. I find that sooo funny. Im not in love with him I tricked my self to believe so but dont get me wrong I do for sure love him. I miss him alot.
Im doing better with the Katie thing. Im starting to realize she isnt coming back and shes happy. I just wish I could let her go bt its too hard for me.
Ive been arrested 2 times since the 23rd ahah for the same thing drinking woo go me. Im so dumb some times but whateverr Im over it.
<333 much love fuckers