FUCK YOU FUCKER
the reason that i cant stay has nothing to do with loving you. its because i love you too much and you're a fucking idiot who does stupid shit and cannot appreciate that im carrying your child and trying my hardest to do everything right and make everything okay so our baby wont be fucked up and wonder why the fuck we never have money
but i cannot do that when you dont help me out in any way and when you dont even take interest in saving money, because all you want to do is go fuck around and do stupid shit. and by the way, there are such things as toxic friendships, and that my dear is what you and your best friend have. what kind of a best friend encourages someone with a baby on the way to go get fucked up and sell pills? A BAD ONE!
i have made so many fucking changes that no one, and i mean NO ONE, appreciates:
1. i dont smoke or drink anymore (for the baby)
2. i dont try to kick everyones ass
3. im trying to learn how to cook and be susy fucking home maker
4.im trying to still be a kid even though im having a baby, but remember, im only 19 and i am in fact still a KID
5.im tryin to lay a foundation for us so our baby will have everything she could ever want and need even though you should be doing all of that
6. just because you work all day every day doesnt mean i dont do shit, i go to school and still carry your child which might i add is EXHAUSTING! and i do damn good in school too! (sometimes)
7. everything i eat is healthy
8. i dont stay out all night getting fucked up on 923482093843209 different things
9. i cant eat anything that the child doesnt like, because it will make me sick and throw up
10. and im getting FAT, not just fat, F-A-T
so how about a "im proud of you" or, "you are doin so good", or even "your gonna be a great mom"
because anyone who has ever seen me with kids knows that i will be a good mom. i know that i will be. im scared as shit because i know im not ready and im not perfect and i havent always done the right thing, but who has? i am proud of myself for all the changes i have made, and i just wish you wouldnt be so condescending about EVERYTHING.
i mean, you know your gonna be a mom when all you do is watch TLC all day