I'm getting old....
So I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and first off that is dangerous in itself. My future consists of graduating, go to grad school, do the military band thing to pay for it, teach for a while, go back for my doctorate and teach at a university level.. I always thought being in music will always make me happy, being apart of it. Nothing else in life was important. But there is a missing link to my life that really concerns me. Falling in love and having a family never really phased me until now. I really want that in my life. Everyone at work has pictures of their husbands, boyfriends and children while I have pictures of my band. I log onto facebook and find a new friend that's either in a realtionship, engaged or I find wedding and baby pictures. It's really hitting me that I don't want to go through the rest of my life not loving anyone. I have been in love before. His name was Eric and he passed away my freshman year of college. What if I never find that again? Is it God's intentions for me to be married to music? Am I going to finish out my life alone?