Changes
Usually birthdays go by and I dont feel any different than before, but somehow now that im 20 i feel different. Maybe its because my birthday happened to correspond with a lot of big events and decisions in my life, i dont know, but i feel older, wiser, yet at the same time im still the scared little girl i used to be. Its strange, Ive grown so much, I have a grasp on my life. I almost feel like im looking down on myself, its strange. I guess i dont really have a word for how I'm feeling. I know ill still have my childish moments and ill keep making mistakes but its ok because thats how i learn. Ive also learned that just because things do not turn out like you are expecting doesnt mean its wrong or bad, just different.(im not really sure what im referring too i just felt that needed to be stated).
Im ready for this school year to be over. Im ready for new challenges, ready for a new chapter in my life. And as much as i realize that this new chapter means some things will change, i cant help but hope that some stay the same. they do say that going away makes you realize who your real friends are, hope you guys stick around for me to come back. i hope im strong enough to leave...
ive been listening to wild horses by natasha bedingfield all day, i feel like it describes my life right now so perfectly...and she has such a beautiful voice.
ok i guess i need to stop all this deep thinking, i dont really have a conclusion to what i want to say and i have to go do the tons of work avaiting me in my room as soon as i leave this spanish room. Woosh theres reality calling me back, im so done with school right now, 2 weeks of classes, 3 assignments, a psych research paper, a presentation, and 2 quizzes. oh wait then i have 2 weeks of finals. but its ok
ill be home in less than a month and after that, well i get to spend 10 days in sunny warm weather with 2 of the best friends (which all my best friends were coming but thats another story for another day) i could ever wish for:)
alright packing up and going back to my room, watching a quick episode of everwood, cause im a dork and want a break, then going back to work
to all my friends, i love you, i wouldnt be who i am today without you, and i adore you guys for it
Im ready for this school year to be over. Im ready for new challenges, ready for a new chapter in my life. And as much as i realize that this new chapter means some things will change, i cant help but hope that some stay the same. they do say that going away makes you realize who your real friends are, hope you guys stick around for me to come back. i hope im strong enough to leave...
ive been listening to wild horses by natasha bedingfield all day, i feel like it describes my life right now so perfectly...and she has such a beautiful voice.
ok i guess i need to stop all this deep thinking, i dont really have a conclusion to what i want to say and i have to go do the tons of work avaiting me in my room as soon as i leave this spanish room. Woosh theres reality calling me back, im so done with school right now, 2 weeks of classes, 3 assignments, a psych research paper, a presentation, and 2 quizzes. oh wait then i have 2 weeks of finals. but its ok
ill be home in less than a month and after that, well i get to spend 10 days in sunny warm weather with 2 of the best friends (which all my best friends were coming but thats another story for another day) i could ever wish for:)
alright packing up and going back to my room, watching a quick episode of everwood, cause im a dork and want a break, then going back to work
to all my friends, i love you, i wouldnt be who i am today without you, and i adore you guys for it