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its been so long since I've heard from you- I almost feel forgotten. But life is what it is and you are... you, I suppose. I don't regret the feelings or emotions I convey. I am angry and upset, I am hurt and disappointed. I don't have any love I don't have any hope of a beautiful future I don't have anything- I'm confused and lost- and none of it is your fault. In fact its no one's but mine own. I hate me I hate it all. Can't I find realness in one area of my life- will not one thing become unglued and the light of reality shine through ? Am I cursed to live in this fantasy forever? relieve me- God, relieve me.