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ok whoa, im starting to feel real shitty about the ashlei situation, she told me that she only wanted to break up to see how id respond. and since i was kind of all right with it, it really busted her up and now i feel like about the shittiest person ever. part of me wants to go crawling back, but the other part knows i ended it for a reason, even though i cant quite grasp what it is right now. she said i dont have a soul or something, cause none of it really affected me at the time. its cause i was in some wierd zoned out state, like i was watching the situation happening to somone else not me. i just dont want to deal with the whole intense relationship thing right now, its way too much of a bummer, i need to lighten up for a while. of course heres a perfect girl, gorguoess, completely in love with me and would do anything for me pretty much, and would never break up with me or anything unless i did it. i really dont like being that important to people or something, like what the hell?