I just Wanna SCREAM...!!! ARGH
Ok so i haven't updated this thing in a while. So alot has happened..
Good stuff:
1) Charlie and I may have found an apartment. I hope. I finally get to move out with him.
2) Also school starts on August 29th, I know its stressful, but I can get away from the club and spend some time for em, and my BF, and my best friend. Thats all I care about, anyone that cares I care for.
Bad stuff:
1) First of all this saturday was a sensitive one. I felt like an asshole and I felt like I was lied to. Not about anything huge but enough to make me worry. I didnt see in the point of the argument but it happened. I got into a disagreement with my BF saturday. Pretty much he was upset that we havn't done anything together in the past 2 weeks. I feel like such an asshole because I wasn't as sensitive to his feelings as I should've been but iTs only been 2 weeks. I love every moment we've spent together and look forward to any to come. One of the things that bothered him was that club itself. He told me that he was upset and people there just piss him off because it's like thats all they have going for them in life. Which is true. he said he needed to get away because he was getting tired of it. He enjoyed seeing me and V and all of us but it was bothering him. Sunday I went to bingo with charlie and then to Marcies for the show. I didnt invite my BF because I didn't want him to go somewhere that upset him like that. Well wouldn't you know I went in and he was there. Not that I cared that he went out with his friends because he is free to do whatever he wants, BUT, WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THE ARGUMENT THEN. If that place Upsets him that much then why would you run there the next day. id on't understand maybe i'm just looking at it wrong. But whatever. I dont' hold grudges i just get frustrated and get over it. Everything will be ok. i just don't understand. I dont go places that upset me.
2)I feel horrible because I promised V we would go to a straight bar for her. to get here away from all the gay clubs. Well I for got and im sorry sweetie. I know you said it wasnt a big deal but I feel bad. Just let me LOL....I will make it up to you soon hopefully.
3) I like to call thsi section "THE x's" 2 of my ex's were at marcellas saturday night. The first wasn Jason who gained 200 pounds. He tried talking to me butI stayed away, he kept bothering me and I was gonna punch hi in his goddamn face but he finally stopped. He is the one that cheated on me because I would'nt have sex with him and when i finally did he dropped me like a bad habit the next day. What a fuck face. I hate cheaters. The 2nd, whom you all know, Was JUSTIN, Ugh i despise that name. He is the most disgusting, lying, cheating. uncaring, insensitive, hair-losing, can't get it up, pill-popping, coke addict, nausiating, empty, unkind, back-stabbing, unfaithful, materialisitc, fake, grubby, absurd, appalling, egotistic, self-centered, irrational, trivial, twisted, dirty, vain, scumbag I have ever met in my life. Anyone who has cheated on their other then blamed it on their other is messed up. That is why he hates me. He is nothing compared to NICK and he knows it. He sux at life and should keep sucking because he is gonna be 60 and single and still wonder why..TAKE THAT FUCKER... ok anyways. I don't meant o be salty but what a night saturday. From fighting with my first ex - > to seeing my recent ex -> then fighting with my real boyfriend. I just wanted to fall apart and jump a cliff... But ok thats all for now.. thanks for listening..Hope I didnt offend anyone. besides justin or jason..
The people I love I tell you and you know who you are. Sorry for being down but things will be better. Just needs a short amoutn of time tovent to myself and this dumb thing.
" Your eyes are the key to my feelings. your heart is the key to my mind, Your personality is the key to my world, If you melt them down and make them one you will know me. If you set one aside you will lose me."
-~ Dustin (wow, thats a good one)LOL ;)
Good stuff:
1) Charlie and I may have found an apartment. I hope. I finally get to move out with him.
2) Also school starts on August 29th, I know its stressful, but I can get away from the club and spend some time for em, and my BF, and my best friend. Thats all I care about, anyone that cares I care for.
Bad stuff:
1) First of all this saturday was a sensitive one. I felt like an asshole and I felt like I was lied to. Not about anything huge but enough to make me worry. I didnt see in the point of the argument but it happened. I got into a disagreement with my BF saturday. Pretty much he was upset that we havn't done anything together in the past 2 weeks. I feel like such an asshole because I wasn't as sensitive to his feelings as I should've been but iTs only been 2 weeks. I love every moment we've spent together and look forward to any to come. One of the things that bothered him was that club itself. He told me that he was upset and people there just piss him off because it's like thats all they have going for them in life. Which is true. he said he needed to get away because he was getting tired of it. He enjoyed seeing me and V and all of us but it was bothering him. Sunday I went to bingo with charlie and then to Marcies for the show. I didnt invite my BF because I didn't want him to go somewhere that upset him like that. Well wouldn't you know I went in and he was there. Not that I cared that he went out with his friends because he is free to do whatever he wants, BUT, WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THE ARGUMENT THEN. If that place Upsets him that much then why would you run there the next day. id on't understand maybe i'm just looking at it wrong. But whatever. I dont' hold grudges i just get frustrated and get over it. Everything will be ok. i just don't understand. I dont go places that upset me.
2)I feel horrible because I promised V we would go to a straight bar for her. to get here away from all the gay clubs. Well I for got and im sorry sweetie. I know you said it wasnt a big deal but I feel bad. Just let me LOL....I will make it up to you soon hopefully.
3) I like to call thsi section "THE x's" 2 of my ex's were at marcellas saturday night. The first wasn Jason who gained 200 pounds. He tried talking to me butI stayed away, he kept bothering me and I was gonna punch hi in his goddamn face but he finally stopped. He is the one that cheated on me because I would'nt have sex with him and when i finally did he dropped me like a bad habit the next day. What a fuck face. I hate cheaters. The 2nd, whom you all know, Was JUSTIN, Ugh i despise that name. He is the most disgusting, lying, cheating. uncaring, insensitive, hair-losing, can't get it up, pill-popping, coke addict, nausiating, empty, unkind, back-stabbing, unfaithful, materialisitc, fake, grubby, absurd, appalling, egotistic, self-centered, irrational, trivial, twisted, dirty, vain, scumbag I have ever met in my life. Anyone who has cheated on their other then blamed it on their other is messed up. That is why he hates me. He is nothing compared to NICK and he knows it. He sux at life and should keep sucking because he is gonna be 60 and single and still wonder why..TAKE THAT FUCKER... ok anyways. I don't meant o be salty but what a night saturday. From fighting with my first ex - > to seeing my recent ex -> then fighting with my real boyfriend. I just wanted to fall apart and jump a cliff... But ok thats all for now.. thanks for listening..Hope I didnt offend anyone. besides justin or jason..
The people I love I tell you and you know who you are. Sorry for being down but things will be better. Just needs a short amoutn of time tovent to myself and this dumb thing.
" Your eyes are the key to my feelings. your heart is the key to my mind, Your personality is the key to my world, If you melt them down and make them one you will know me. If you set one aside you will lose me."
-~ Dustin (wow, thats a good one)LOL ;)