a real post
I like getting paid but I dislike my job ... fixing computers for like 9 hours strait becuase the company just destroyed their client database is... unpleasant... a note to all of you out there... if your going to get rid of a file copy a blank version over it... if its deleted it can be retreived but the blank with same name seems to destroy the old one...
I did however learn something interesting at my job... first off if you get your computer fixed if theres porn on it theres like a 50% chance im gonna stumble across it while fixing your computer... this couple who owns the business i work for have 0 porn period like ever married 53 years... but they do watch sex in the city... I dk why i found this odd but yeah they have been married 53 years and watch sex in the city every night... maybe I should watch that show... the lack of porn wasnt important to my point accept as an indication of how unlikely it seemed to me they would watch that show from the little bits iv seen of it.
Things are still going pretty much the same with my health... some improvements but overall i feel like iv started to loose a little ground... hopefully that will change shortly.
Oh uh... I realized that I dont trust females at all, I was talking to tom and it occured to me just how little I trusted them. I mean I dont trust ppl easy in general but its almost 0 trust for the female gender. I trust problly 4 of them who are my friends but its an uneasy trust. I'm going to have to fix that or find someone who completely proves my view wrong. I know I have distorted thinking to some degree as a pessimist and with depression. I wonder how much I have missed of this world seeing things through tinted eyes.
It pains me to think how much more beautiful and lively this world might be when I beat this... its pain becuase deep down inside I regret all the things I have missed or not been able to really enjoy. If I get even a little time where it goes away entirely I am going to live up every second.
So yes now im posting on this its a terrible addiction I know but hey at least I dont do drugs, dont drink and dont smoke.
I did however learn something interesting at my job... first off if you get your computer fixed if theres porn on it theres like a 50% chance im gonna stumble across it while fixing your computer... this couple who owns the business i work for have 0 porn period like ever married 53 years... but they do watch sex in the city... I dk why i found this odd but yeah they have been married 53 years and watch sex in the city every night... maybe I should watch that show... the lack of porn wasnt important to my point accept as an indication of how unlikely it seemed to me they would watch that show from the little bits iv seen of it.
Things are still going pretty much the same with my health... some improvements but overall i feel like iv started to loose a little ground... hopefully that will change shortly.
Oh uh... I realized that I dont trust females at all, I was talking to tom and it occured to me just how little I trusted them. I mean I dont trust ppl easy in general but its almost 0 trust for the female gender. I trust problly 4 of them who are my friends but its an uneasy trust. I'm going to have to fix that or find someone who completely proves my view wrong. I know I have distorted thinking to some degree as a pessimist and with depression. I wonder how much I have missed of this world seeing things through tinted eyes.
It pains me to think how much more beautiful and lively this world might be when I beat this... its pain becuase deep down inside I regret all the things I have missed or not been able to really enjoy. If I get even a little time where it goes away entirely I am going to live up every second.
So yes now im posting on this its a terrible addiction I know but hey at least I dont do drugs, dont drink and dont smoke.