just in case you haven't bawled today...

[freelancerrh]

Stumbled across this video today:

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by Eminemgirl814

At some point in time, I am going to get over these two and the way they kill my soul. Right? Right?!?

Not today, obviously.

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[leobrat]

Um, yeah, #cryingforever.

I have to say, I am very impressed by the dedication you continue to have to this couple, years later. I really think it's wonderful.

[freelancerrh]

I don't know that it's "dedication." There are some people I know, who they are still #1 Fandom, OTP to the end of all time, still write exclusively about them, etc.

For me, it's more a matter of I discovered them late. Still several years ago, but I didn't have WB when Buffy & Angel originally aired, so I mainlined them about four or five years ago, and while I loved BtVS for the dialogue and the messages and the all-around awesome, I maintained a total disconnect from all the 'ships until "City Of..." when Angel handed Cordelia a box, and I SHIPPED THEM SO HARD from then until the end, and I am bitter, bitter, cannot let it go.

But yeah, I tried to write them, and it didn't take, so now mostly, every few months I remember that I need them in my life, and I need it to end differently, and then I watch sad videos and read amazing fanfic, until the ache subsides for a bit.

[leobrat]

That's true. I guess we've just talked about them quite a bit.

I've tried to write them too, and well...I don't know, it didn't work for me either. I kind of somehow get very intimidated to write pairings that already have quite a bit of fic, I guess I'm afraid of being seen doing an idea that's already been done.

[freelancerrh]

Probably because I'm always happy to have flisters who actually ship them. :D

For me, it's not plot that is the hangup, or even the amount of fic out there. I am just terrified of trying my hand at shows with completely distinctive dialogue. Which is irritating, because that's also what tends to draw me into a show: BtVS/Angel, Veronica Mars, Gilmore Girls, everything Sorkin--I love them SO MUCH, but every time I sit down to write them (and I've thought up some wonderful, epic plots; at least they seem that way in my head, lol), I find myself either paralyzed to the point I cannot write, or end up destroying everything I do write, because the dialogue doesn't work.

[leobrat]

Oh! Also! I'm about...mmmm...halfway through Mockingjay and stalling. Part of that is because I've been very busy with life the past couple of weeks, and I'm also trying to spend the bulk of my free time working on my Heroine BigBang, but also...it's not holding my interest as the other two have...I mean, I will obviously finish, I can't just let it go at this point, but...

*please don't defriend me

[freelancerrh]

I'm sorry you're stalling on it. I personally didn't--though I did need to take some breaks during it, which I didn't on the other two--but I know it's the book most people have problems with. I think it's probably because there *is* a deliberate tone change in Mockingjay. The first two are about the games, and even though there is some recognition of the horrible emotional fallout in them, Mockingjay is really all about the trauma, the PTSD that Katniss suffers as a result of everything that's happened to her. By definition, it is going to be a very different book. Even with the war going on, that's not really the focus, and a lot of people get bored and/or bothered by that. I think it is just a matter of what you expect from the series. For me, it was moving and emotional and a through-line I didn't expect but which felt more fulfilling than simply another war story. But, and this is a phrase I don't use a lot, your mileage may vary, when it comes to this one.

[leobrat]

Actually, i read like two chapters last night, and while I'm reading it, I enjoy it, but I notice...when I put it down to go do other things, I don't run back to it. I'm not really sure what it is, because I don't think of myself as someone who needs 'action' to be invested, but...

As far as expectations, I'm not really sure what mine are. I'm definitely in the home stretch, and I am looking for some sort of resolution for Katniss, for Panem, and I don't know how/if we are building towards that. Like, the one thing I know I don't want, is for, on the last page, bombs are still going off and Katniss is still running for her life. :|