History
This is going to be a big post, to recap some things from my other journal
Tuesday February 15, 2005
so my weekend at home:
friday, didnt do much, just hung out and rested.
Saturday, I went and met Sandy at The Inside Lane, in Buchannan, my first time eating in a bar, how bout that? We talked and we had some time before she had to work, so we took a walk around the block and through the park. We threw snow at each other, and once when I threw a snowball, my ring slipped off my finger, and rolled into the pond. oops salgood, I was able to get it back. I gave Sandy her Christmas a little late *NOT MY FAULT*, and she loved it. She's into frogs, and I got her a glass frog with a little stand, and she got a kick out of it, like I knew she would. Then I headed off to Stephs house, and I played cards with Steph, Dan, and Kari, from the Center. We went to Pizza Hut for dinner, and then went back to Steph's place and watched Law & Order: Criminal Intent and Law & Order: Special Victims Unit. Good times.
Sunday..... Sunday...... I got up and got ready. I had plans to meet a friend at Prime Table in Niles. I got there, and as usual, she was late, but no biggie, I had been waiting since Dec., I could wait a little longer. Her name is Camille Roth. Some of you know her, some of you don't. But we went on with breakfast and it was good to catch up with her. But more importantly, I did something that I have never done before. I told her how I truely felt about her. About how I used to have a crush on her, my Junior year, her Senior year *she's 13 days older than me*. But because of things that had happened in both our lives, I couldn't work up the courage to tell her how I felt. That fall, my Senior year, I went to the 4-H Fair in Berrien County 4 out of 5 days, and thats at least a 30-40 minute trip, one way. That New Years I got to see her for a little while, and then she dissapeared out of my life, for 9 months. She came back, asking to be let back into my life, and I let her, no questions, no conditions, except for the fact that if things got bad again, heaven forbid, she should turn towards her friends, not away from them. So on the 10th month *October*, I finally got to see her. Her birthday was Oct. 6th, and we met on the 10th. We had lunch and I welcomed her back to "the land of the living". That with the gifts I gave her, brought her to tears. *fast forward to thanksgiving* I met her at her appartment, and we watched movies for a while, and then I left, and when I left and said goodbye, I realized that saying goodbye to her and leaving was one of the hardest things i had to do that break, none of the other goodbyes I said were anywhere near as hard. That's when I realized that I loved her again. When she had come back, I thought, 'ok, we're gonna be just friends.' I really had no expectation of feeling like I had Junior year. But as things are so often out of our control, so was this. I found myself loving her again. *fast forward again to last Sunday* I told her all of this, and when I told her, I knew she had a boyfriend, so I didnt expect anything from her. I felt that I owed her the fact that she should know exactly how I feel about her. I also couldn't "lose" her again, like I had before, without telling her how I truely felt. And she was speechless, you know, the open the mouth, close the mouth, without saying anything, and then with a weak smile. She told me that she had had a guess that was how I felt, but its one thing to think it, yet a totally different thing to have all doubt removed. And she told me sorry, but she sees me as she sees Seth Proctor *a mutual friend*, like a really close brother, an symbolic rock in her life, and that she knows how much guys hate being thought of as brothers, especially by the ones they love. I told her dont worry about it, I had had the feeling that was how she thought of me. But like she said, its one thing to guess it, but its completely another to hear it. Had she told me she was going to break up with Nathan, I would strongly urged her not to. She deserves someone who can be there for her and be there with her when shes had a bad day, someone she can just sit and be with and hold. I can't give her that from down here. Nathan can, he makes her really happy, and I honestly wish them nothing but the best together. And while it was hard on both of us, it was quite possibly the best thing for us. There's no longer any hiding and wondering how we feel about each other. It's out in the open. And because of that I immediately started to feel better, and if I had it to do over again, I would in a heartbeat, without a doubt. If things are meant to be, or not, they will work out the way they will. To add to the emotional impact of the day *not on purpose*, I gave her her Christmas present before leaving. She collects horses from the Trail of Painted Ponies collection. They are very hard to find around here, and when you have them shipped in, their ears are often broken from rough handling. However, I got mine when I was down in El Paso for the Bowl Game. We traveled over to Mesilla, NM, for a quick performance, and then we were free to shop. In one of the stores I saw the horses and I was like, 'cant be, no way'. I went over there, and looked at them, and sure enough, they were from the same collection. So I then had to choose, and I saw one that was black, with golden suns, and my mind just said 'SCORE'. So when she opened it, she flipped. "*GASP* Greg you didn't!!" "yes, I did", "Oh wow!". I knew she'd love it. All thats left now is to see what happens and where we go from here....
Sunday March 13, 2005
I know its been a while, but for some time after that last post, i just felt that..... like, it was a culmination, you know? And after, I just didn't feel the need to write even after something fun happened, I just didn't have the motivation. But it seems that its returning to maybe, or maybe its a last hurrah, who knows? We'll just have to ride it out and for a change, not only do you not know if I will post again, but neither do I.
Saturday, March 5th, I had a good day. My RA and I went to see Constantine. He had already seen it, but he didnt mind seeing it again. I liked it it was pretty cool. I might pay money to see it again, if someone asked me to go with them. It deals with Heaven and Hell being on almost the same astral plane as us, and that some people can transit to the different planes, and that there is a 'balance' on our plane, and when a demon changes the balance, Constantine finds them and sends them back to Hell. And lets just say at the end, he gets to have a nice chat with a guy named Lu. =)
After that I hung out at my dorm for a little while, then I headed over to Elliot Hall. There I got to see Andy Griggs, Sara Evans, and Brad Paisley, on their Mud & Suds Tour. That was a great time Andy went first for about a half hour, and then Sara for about an hour, and she actually talked to us between songs about whats going on with her, and she just recently had a baby, and she said that the hour she was on stage was "an hour I get to have my breasts all to myself", and of course everyone laughed, when she had to leave, Brad came out and he played for almost an hour and a half. They also had video screens behind them showing clips from music videos, or an animation of Superband, where all the members could fly around on their instruments and save the day. All in all, it was a great time, I woulda rathered heard more of Andy's music, but I realize that he's kinda just an opener and kinda new, but not brand new, so while he has a couple CDs out, not a lot of people know those other songs. But it was still fun, so I'm glad that I went.
*Hrm... maybe I should keep going....*
Yesterday, March 12, being on Spring Break, I went and installed the new CD player in my car, it was a good learning experience. Later that night, I saw Rinn perform in The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe, for the Spring play for the high school. She was good, and at one point, she got to use a whip, and she looked like she was enjoying that quite a bit *wink wink*. Afterwords Joel, Christina and I went to McD's and we just sat and talked. Oh wait, can't forget that we ate too. But we had a great time, I've missed Joel's craziness. He was wearing a shirt with a Mario mushroom on it, and I smacked it, and asked him why I didn't grow to 2x my size, and he said it was a 1-up Mushroom, and from that point on, I smacked that mushroom for extra lives whenever it seemed appropriate to the jokes we were making. It was a grand old time, I hadnt laughed that hard in a while. Godspeed
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Hey everyone, I feel like I should post something, but there's not really much going on here. I had Applebee's for dinner tonight, that was cool, but beyond that, not much here. So I decided that I would post my poems on here. I'm going to post links here, and one at a time. So here's the first poem I wrote. The date's in it, but just to illuminate it a little more, it was the tuesday after I told Camille how I felt.
You
The next poem, the non-rhyming version of the above poem. Until then, Godspeed and be safe.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Bigger update to follow later, but I thought it was about time to release the next poem.
You -- unrhyming version
Comments are always welcome.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Alrighty, so here's the deal As most of you who know me know, I was raised to be a gentleman, and I am most of the time. Holding doors open for others, for instance. Well, today I was doing just that. I came out of my science class, and on my way out the door, I saw someone heading on their way in. So I ended up coming out first, so I held the door for her. And I have to tell you, the smile she gave me..... it was easiest THE single most sincere smile and "Thank you" that I have ever gotten for holding the door open for someone, or even almost anything I've ever done, Almost. I have to tell you, that small event really made my day, I've been in a good mood ever since. I just thought that I'd share my wisdom from it with you, dont ever underestimate the power a small act of kindness has, whether it be holding the door open for someone, or just giving someone a smile.
New poem
Love
Comments always welcome
Tuesday February 15, 2005
so my weekend at home:
friday, didnt do much, just hung out and rested.
Saturday, I went and met Sandy at The Inside Lane, in Buchannan, my first time eating in a bar, how bout that? We talked and we had some time before she had to work, so we took a walk around the block and through the park. We threw snow at each other, and once when I threw a snowball, my ring slipped off my finger, and rolled into the pond. oops salgood, I was able to get it back. I gave Sandy her Christmas a little late *NOT MY FAULT*, and she loved it. She's into frogs, and I got her a glass frog with a little stand, and she got a kick out of it, like I knew she would. Then I headed off to Stephs house, and I played cards with Steph, Dan, and Kari, from the Center. We went to Pizza Hut for dinner, and then went back to Steph's place and watched Law & Order: Criminal Intent and Law & Order: Special Victims Unit. Good times.
Sunday..... Sunday...... I got up and got ready. I had plans to meet a friend at Prime Table in Niles. I got there, and as usual, she was late, but no biggie, I had been waiting since Dec., I could wait a little longer. Her name is Camille Roth. Some of you know her, some of you don't. But we went on with breakfast and it was good to catch up with her. But more importantly, I did something that I have never done before. I told her how I truely felt about her. About how I used to have a crush on her, my Junior year, her Senior year *she's 13 days older than me*. But because of things that had happened in both our lives, I couldn't work up the courage to tell her how I felt. That fall, my Senior year, I went to the 4-H Fair in Berrien County 4 out of 5 days, and thats at least a 30-40 minute trip, one way. That New Years I got to see her for a little while, and then she dissapeared out of my life, for 9 months. She came back, asking to be let back into my life, and I let her, no questions, no conditions, except for the fact that if things got bad again, heaven forbid, she should turn towards her friends, not away from them. So on the 10th month *October*, I finally got to see her. Her birthday was Oct. 6th, and we met on the 10th. We had lunch and I welcomed her back to "the land of the living". That with the gifts I gave her, brought her to tears. *fast forward to thanksgiving* I met her at her appartment, and we watched movies for a while, and then I left, and when I left and said goodbye, I realized that saying goodbye to her and leaving was one of the hardest things i had to do that break, none of the other goodbyes I said were anywhere near as hard. That's when I realized that I loved her again. When she had come back, I thought, 'ok, we're gonna be just friends.' I really had no expectation of feeling like I had Junior year. But as things are so often out of our control, so was this. I found myself loving her again. *fast forward again to last Sunday* I told her all of this, and when I told her, I knew she had a boyfriend, so I didnt expect anything from her. I felt that I owed her the fact that she should know exactly how I feel about her. I also couldn't "lose" her again, like I had before, without telling her how I truely felt. And she was speechless, you know, the open the mouth, close the mouth, without saying anything, and then with a weak smile. She told me that she had had a guess that was how I felt, but its one thing to think it, yet a totally different thing to have all doubt removed. And she told me sorry, but she sees me as she sees Seth Proctor *a mutual friend*, like a really close brother, an symbolic rock in her life, and that she knows how much guys hate being thought of as brothers, especially by the ones they love. I told her dont worry about it, I had had the feeling that was how she thought of me. But like she said, its one thing to guess it, but its completely another to hear it. Had she told me she was going to break up with Nathan, I would strongly urged her not to. She deserves someone who can be there for her and be there with her when shes had a bad day, someone she can just sit and be with and hold. I can't give her that from down here. Nathan can, he makes her really happy, and I honestly wish them nothing but the best together. And while it was hard on both of us, it was quite possibly the best thing for us. There's no longer any hiding and wondering how we feel about each other. It's out in the open. And because of that I immediately started to feel better, and if I had it to do over again, I would in a heartbeat, without a doubt. If things are meant to be, or not, they will work out the way they will. To add to the emotional impact of the day *not on purpose*, I gave her her Christmas present before leaving. She collects horses from the Trail of Painted Ponies collection. They are very hard to find around here, and when you have them shipped in, their ears are often broken from rough handling. However, I got mine when I was down in El Paso for the Bowl Game. We traveled over to Mesilla, NM, for a quick performance, and then we were free to shop. In one of the stores I saw the horses and I was like, 'cant be, no way'. I went over there, and looked at them, and sure enough, they were from the same collection. So I then had to choose, and I saw one that was black, with golden suns, and my mind just said 'SCORE'. So when she opened it, she flipped. "*GASP* Greg you didn't!!" "yes, I did", "Oh wow!". I knew she'd love it. All thats left now is to see what happens and where we go from here....
Sunday March 13, 2005
I know its been a while, but for some time after that last post, i just felt that..... like, it was a culmination, you know? And after, I just didn't feel the need to write even after something fun happened, I just didn't have the motivation. But it seems that its returning to maybe, or maybe its a last hurrah, who knows? We'll just have to ride it out and for a change, not only do you not know if I will post again, but neither do I.
Saturday, March 5th, I had a good day. My RA and I went to see Constantine. He had already seen it, but he didnt mind seeing it again. I liked it it was pretty cool. I might pay money to see it again, if someone asked me to go with them. It deals with Heaven and Hell being on almost the same astral plane as us, and that some people can transit to the different planes, and that there is a 'balance' on our plane, and when a demon changes the balance, Constantine finds them and sends them back to Hell. And lets just say at the end, he gets to have a nice chat with a guy named Lu. =)
After that I hung out at my dorm for a little while, then I headed over to Elliot Hall. There I got to see Andy Griggs, Sara Evans, and Brad Paisley, on their Mud & Suds Tour. That was a great time Andy went first for about a half hour, and then Sara for about an hour, and she actually talked to us between songs about whats going on with her, and she just recently had a baby, and she said that the hour she was on stage was "an hour I get to have my breasts all to myself", and of course everyone laughed, when she had to leave, Brad came out and he played for almost an hour and a half. They also had video screens behind them showing clips from music videos, or an animation of Superband, where all the members could fly around on their instruments and save the day. All in all, it was a great time, I woulda rathered heard more of Andy's music, but I realize that he's kinda just an opener and kinda new, but not brand new, so while he has a couple CDs out, not a lot of people know those other songs. But it was still fun, so I'm glad that I went.
*Hrm... maybe I should keep going....*
Yesterday, March 12, being on Spring Break, I went and installed the new CD player in my car, it was a good learning experience. Later that night, I saw Rinn perform in The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe, for the Spring play for the high school. She was good, and at one point, she got to use a whip, and she looked like she was enjoying that quite a bit *wink wink*. Afterwords Joel, Christina and I went to McD's and we just sat and talked. Oh wait, can't forget that we ate too. But we had a great time, I've missed Joel's craziness. He was wearing a shirt with a Mario mushroom on it, and I smacked it, and asked him why I didn't grow to 2x my size, and he said it was a 1-up Mushroom, and from that point on, I smacked that mushroom for extra lives whenever it seemed appropriate to the jokes we were making. It was a grand old time, I hadnt laughed that hard in a while. Godspeed
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Hey everyone, I feel like I should post something, but there's not really much going on here. I had Applebee's for dinner tonight, that was cool, but beyond that, not much here. So I decided that I would post my poems on here. I'm going to post links here, and one at a time. So here's the first poem I wrote. The date's in it, but just to illuminate it a little more, it was the tuesday after I told Camille how I felt.
You
The next poem, the non-rhyming version of the above poem. Until then, Godspeed and be safe.
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Bigger update to follow later, but I thought it was about time to release the next poem.
You -- unrhyming version
Comments are always welcome.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Alrighty, so here's the deal As most of you who know me know, I was raised to be a gentleman, and I am most of the time. Holding doors open for others, for instance. Well, today I was doing just that. I came out of my science class, and on my way out the door, I saw someone heading on their way in. So I ended up coming out first, so I held the door for her. And I have to tell you, the smile she gave me..... it was easiest THE single most sincere smile and "Thank you" that I have ever gotten for holding the door open for someone, or even almost anything I've ever done, Almost. I have to tell you, that small event really made my day, I've been in a good mood ever since. I just thought that I'd share my wisdom from it with you, dont ever underestimate the power a small act of kindness has, whether it be holding the door open for someone, or just giving someone a smile.
New poem
Love
Comments always welcome