Career and life qstns. once again
Hey Guys,
How is everybody? Stu's grandma died last week so that's why I've been MIA. It brought back some emotions for me about my own grandparents' deaths, which was really hard for me then, but I'm ok. Stu is doing ok too. He was sad, obviously, but I think he's alright. He doesn't express things much. She lived a good life, though, but these kinds of things are always difficult.
So what else has been happening? As you see from my subject, I'm PMSing once again as that's when I get into my what am I doing with my life feelings. The writing is progressing as usual, and I'm tutoring too, but it's so hard for me to have a career like this at the moment. Maybe, if all worked out, my plans wouldn't feel so limbo. It's so hard for me not to have a plan. I've ALWAYS been a planner since I knew learned how to make lists. Nevermind that some things I planned didn't work out (and for many of them, that's a good thing) but it gives me this security, and that's something I don't have now. The money issue is also hard for me. It's difficult not to feel guilty about everything I do when we only have one steady paycheck coming in. The thing is I don't even know what I'd like to do if writing doesn't work. And, yes, I know it's bad to think like this, but I feel I need to have a back-up. I will NEVER go back to teaching and counseling doesn't appeal that much. So, I don't know. I guess I'll worry about that this summer if things stink. Sigh.
Sara, I started watching Gilmore Girls in reruns on the Family Channel and really like it. Didn't have a chance to watch it last night, though. The part I'm up to now is when Rory and Dean try to set up Lane and Todd (Dean's friend). Dean is so good-looking. Is it the same actor as currently? Why did he and Rory break up anyway? I was also please to see hot Chad Michael Murray on Gilmore Girls. I didn't know he had a big part on that show. He's my One Tree Hill boy.
I hope everyone is doing well. Today is my novel writing day so that's what I'll be focusing on. Wish me luck.
Love,
Margie
How is everybody? Stu's grandma died last week so that's why I've been MIA. It brought back some emotions for me about my own grandparents' deaths, which was really hard for me then, but I'm ok. Stu is doing ok too. He was sad, obviously, but I think he's alright. He doesn't express things much. She lived a good life, though, but these kinds of things are always difficult.
So what else has been happening? As you see from my subject, I'm PMSing once again as that's when I get into my what am I doing with my life feelings. The writing is progressing as usual, and I'm tutoring too, but it's so hard for me to have a career like this at the moment. Maybe, if all worked out, my plans wouldn't feel so limbo. It's so hard for me not to have a plan. I've ALWAYS been a planner since I knew learned how to make lists. Nevermind that some things I planned didn't work out (and for many of them, that's a good thing) but it gives me this security, and that's something I don't have now. The money issue is also hard for me. It's difficult not to feel guilty about everything I do when we only have one steady paycheck coming in. The thing is I don't even know what I'd like to do if writing doesn't work. And, yes, I know it's bad to think like this, but I feel I need to have a back-up. I will NEVER go back to teaching and counseling doesn't appeal that much. So, I don't know. I guess I'll worry about that this summer if things stink. Sigh.
Sara, I started watching Gilmore Girls in reruns on the Family Channel and really like it. Didn't have a chance to watch it last night, though. The part I'm up to now is when Rory and Dean try to set up Lane and Todd (Dean's friend). Dean is so good-looking. Is it the same actor as currently? Why did he and Rory break up anyway? I was also please to see hot Chad Michael Murray on Gilmore Girls. I didn't know he had a big part on that show. He's my One Tree Hill boy.
I hope everyone is doing well. Today is my novel writing day so that's what I'll be focusing on. Wish me luck.
Love,
Margie