.: yOo shOuLda knOwn yOor girL was gOnna ride or Die.. :.
omfg. way to start off the new year of school...
- 1st day of school ((Monday)): AWESOME. classes seem easy... get to see all my friends, lOoked so cute. i get to see muh baby KenDaL!!
- Tuesday: AWESOME. get to see muh baby every single day.
- Wednesday: AWESOME. same as before
- Thursday: same.. except sOme shyt happened at night..
- Friday: mmkay; I now beleive in superstitions. FRiDAY the 13th.. andddd we are taking a "break". too many things against us... i don`t wanna go into detaiL because everytime i do i end up crying.. but i understand he`s got family stuff goin on, they wanna kick him out tha house and stuff, and i don`t wanna be in the middle of that, plus my parents still don`t lemme see him and stuff so it would still be behind muh parents back and all this together is too much for us to stay together... he says he still loves me.. and he says "it ain`t the end of us".. but i`m juSs, in shock still.. but Kendal, if you are to ever come across this, i wanna let you knoe that juss because we are on a "break" so we ain`t together anymore ((or for the moment, whatever you wanna call it)) i understand what you are going through, i`m really sorry bout your family situation, and i`m more sorry that you felt like you couldn`t tell me stuff, and though so many things aren`t allowing us to be together physically, your still wit me in my heart, baby i`m always here for you, and i`ll always have love for you. And who knows, maybe if i straighten up and they see you for who you really are, maybe my parents will lay off... But no matter what, you`ll always have a place in muh heart, whatever happens later. <333
- Today: thought things were at their worse... but i was wrong. Kendal texted Sarah tellin me he loves me, while i was in the other room on the fone with erika talking bout the break-up and everything, well i guess my mom heard sarah tell britt "look kendal sent lauren a text message, how sweet" so she listened to mine and erika`s conversation, annddd she found out we had gone out. SoOo today has been a big argument, i feel like shyt... my mom, my dad, and i ended up going to Sushi House where I confessed to everything... anddd when we got back, they discussed my punishment. It really sucks, but I thought I`d have a worse one. I`m not allowed any social-ness for one month, until September 14. The social-ness excludes Britt though, because we consider her as family. But yeah.. this sucks because school just started and i`m grounded for a month. Looks liek i`ma miss the first Varsity Football games too.. :( I really am sorry bout everything, but at least now, i got everything off my chest with my parents, and I don`t have to wonder about me and Kendal anymore... well that`s not true... i`m wondering now what`s gonna happen in the future.. hmm...
Okay well.. i guess i`ma chill arOund tha house... i`ma call britt in a minute see if we can hang out tonyte...mmkay.. holluh atchya girl cuz i still got my cell, thank god... and i guess that sayings true, "What doesn`t kill you only makes you stronger" ... love y`all that been by my side
and i still love you Kendal.. peace...