Me? Who, me???? Who is this?????!?!?!?!
Hey guys!!!!!!
Remember me? No?
Yeah. me either.
Well, I don't remember the person who wrote the last entry on here. I don't know who that dependent little child was. It's not me. Not anymore anyways.
I hate being in love. The shittiest part is that I'll always love him. I can admit to that.
But I don't have to make it my life. I never should have.
I blame myself for all the pain I went through. Cuz I clung to something that wasn't real anymore.
He wasn't ready for love, but I thrived on it.
But off that subject, because I don't obsess about it anymore, and there's no reason for me to do so now.
I quit Willy's and started working at Top Con Positioning Systems, where I've been since June.
Jessica got me the job, and Brian worked with us for a while, then they both left and I was forced to actually befriend people here, which I'm ecstatic about, cuz the people rock my world.
I work full time, usually up to 60 hours a week. But the pay is so worth not having a life. I mean, it sucks, but I get to have fun the little time I'm not working.
I got a car! My Acura broke down, and I drove a rental for like, 2 months, (expensive shit!!!!) and then my dad bought me a white '93 Honda Civic Hatchback. It's awesome. It has a great system, 17's, white rims, it's lowered, has an intake system, it's neat. Me and Raymond flew up to Oregon, and drove it back down. It was the first time I saw my dad in like, years, 3 or 4...... It was nice, I missed him.
I moved out of my house in Byron, and moved into Raymond's house with Ray, Rob (Elise's boyfriend) and Jason (Rob's friend). It's cool. It's nice being able to hang out with my friends at my house. The parties aren't bad either.
I still smoke.
I dunno, not much has happened. I mean, a lot has happened, but nothing too exciting, and nothing that pops out besides what I mentioned. Life's alright.
I'm a little down.
But I'm always lonely.
OOH! I almost got together with this guy I work with, Mark, but he's 27 and got drunk at Robert's birthday party in Santa Cruz, and I guess he was talking shit to Scott about how he has hoes all over the place, and I'm just another one, and so Scott's fried punched Mark in the face, knocked the fucker out. I felt all bad for him, cuz Scott wouldn't tell me what was happening, and so at like 3 in the morning I drove Joey and Mark back to Brentwood. Mark stayed at my house and we made out a little, nothing else though, and then I found out why he got punched the next day, and Mark's been on my shit list ever since.
Then there's Ian, who's a hottie, but has a girlfriend (and I work with him too).
There's Jason, who I had a crush on, and now I think is midly annoying. I mean, I could probably end up strongly disliking him, but I live with him, and I don't wanna live with people I don't like. So I wear ignorant sunglasses to make everything even.
Jessica has a class on Tuesdays and Thursdays and she said there's a guy who would be perfect for me, but she was gonna talk to him last week, and he wasn't in class.
And then there's Trevor. Trevor is Elise's fault. I hadn't thought of him in forever, and she tells me he was gonna come over last night. He ended up not coming over, but I expect to see him soon, and I intend to impress if nothing else.
I'm still boy-crazy, but I'm trying to focus more on work, and I'm gonna try and start beauty school soon, because everyone intends to move down to L.A. in about 18 months.
CRAZY STUFF!!! Anywho, I promise to update again! And hopefully we'll get something set up at home so I can put up new pictures. My hair's so long!!!! But for now.....
Goodbye, and love to all.
Remember me? No?
Yeah. me either.
Well, I don't remember the person who wrote the last entry on here. I don't know who that dependent little child was. It's not me. Not anymore anyways.
I hate being in love. The shittiest part is that I'll always love him. I can admit to that.
But I don't have to make it my life. I never should have.
I blame myself for all the pain I went through. Cuz I clung to something that wasn't real anymore.
He wasn't ready for love, but I thrived on it.
But off that subject, because I don't obsess about it anymore, and there's no reason for me to do so now.
I quit Willy's and started working at Top Con Positioning Systems, where I've been since June.
Jessica got me the job, and Brian worked with us for a while, then they both left and I was forced to actually befriend people here, which I'm ecstatic about, cuz the people rock my world.
I work full time, usually up to 60 hours a week. But the pay is so worth not having a life. I mean, it sucks, but I get to have fun the little time I'm not working.
I got a car! My Acura broke down, and I drove a rental for like, 2 months, (expensive shit!!!!) and then my dad bought me a white '93 Honda Civic Hatchback. It's awesome. It has a great system, 17's, white rims, it's lowered, has an intake system, it's neat. Me and Raymond flew up to Oregon, and drove it back down. It was the first time I saw my dad in like, years, 3 or 4...... It was nice, I missed him.
I moved out of my house in Byron, and moved into Raymond's house with Ray, Rob (Elise's boyfriend) and Jason (Rob's friend). It's cool. It's nice being able to hang out with my friends at my house. The parties aren't bad either.
I still smoke.
I dunno, not much has happened. I mean, a lot has happened, but nothing too exciting, and nothing that pops out besides what I mentioned. Life's alright.
I'm a little down.
But I'm always lonely.
OOH! I almost got together with this guy I work with, Mark, but he's 27 and got drunk at Robert's birthday party in Santa Cruz, and I guess he was talking shit to Scott about how he has hoes all over the place, and I'm just another one, and so Scott's fried punched Mark in the face, knocked the fucker out. I felt all bad for him, cuz Scott wouldn't tell me what was happening, and so at like 3 in the morning I drove Joey and Mark back to Brentwood. Mark stayed at my house and we made out a little, nothing else though, and then I found out why he got punched the next day, and Mark's been on my shit list ever since.
Then there's Ian, who's a hottie, but has a girlfriend (and I work with him too).
There's Jason, who I had a crush on, and now I think is midly annoying. I mean, I could probably end up strongly disliking him, but I live with him, and I don't wanna live with people I don't like. So I wear ignorant sunglasses to make everything even.
Jessica has a class on Tuesdays and Thursdays and she said there's a guy who would be perfect for me, but she was gonna talk to him last week, and he wasn't in class.
And then there's Trevor. Trevor is Elise's fault. I hadn't thought of him in forever, and she tells me he was gonna come over last night. He ended up not coming over, but I expect to see him soon, and I intend to impress if nothing else.
I'm still boy-crazy, but I'm trying to focus more on work, and I'm gonna try and start beauty school soon, because everyone intends to move down to L.A. in about 18 months.
CRAZY STUFF!!! Anywho, I promise to update again! And hopefully we'll get something set up at home so I can put up new pictures. My hair's so long!!!! But for now.....
Goodbye, and love to all.