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today started out pretty well, except my film strips have gone missing. in Biology we didn't do anything. in lunch I sat alone again, and then P.E. I wrote Chris Hawkins a letter/note thing. 4th block we were supposed to work on these sheets, but I ended up just writing Charlotte a note that I never gave to her.
I went through a phase where I basically stopped caring about what happens to me. but I'm trying to regain my strength back. I honestly can't wait until college. I wanted to go to UAB so I could be close to home, but they don't have cosmetology there. so I'll have to go to Orlando or somewhere in Mobile. I'm not sure yet if I'm going to UAB for some classes or what, but then again I really just want to get my schooling over with, since I already have to be in highschool an extra year. I really don't even want to be a cosmetologist just because that's what everyone expects of me. I don't know why I don't like that. and I really hate that I'm being help back from starting my life. although, just 5 more months until I get a job and I'm sure that will help me a whole lot. with my depression and all. I really need a social life.
I've also been thinking, I really miss a few people. and I want to start talking to everyone again, but I guess I'm kindof scared of having friends right now. mainly because I'm sooo caught up in schooling that I'm scared it might hold me back and I'll fail again.
I need to see Scott, Aaron, Meagan, Bayli, Logan, Chris Anthony, Dani, Elisabeth, and everyone else! I really do, and I'm planning to set dates asap.
wow, I really need to get a lot done. but then again, I have nothing at all to do. I should sign up for some clubs or something to keep me busy.
another person I really miss is Chris Hawkins. I know I've been acting like I'm really mad at him, but in all honestly I'm not. I'm just frustrated at the whole fact that I can't have him, and I always get what I want. just this time it's backfired. oh well, I'll get over it.
okay!
I went through a phase where I basically stopped caring about what happens to me. but I'm trying to regain my strength back. I honestly can't wait until college. I wanted to go to UAB so I could be close to home, but they don't have cosmetology there. so I'll have to go to Orlando or somewhere in Mobile. I'm not sure yet if I'm going to UAB for some classes or what, but then again I really just want to get my schooling over with, since I already have to be in highschool an extra year. I really don't even want to be a cosmetologist just because that's what everyone expects of me. I don't know why I don't like that. and I really hate that I'm being help back from starting my life. although, just 5 more months until I get a job and I'm sure that will help me a whole lot. with my depression and all. I really need a social life.
I've also been thinking, I really miss a few people. and I want to start talking to everyone again, but I guess I'm kindof scared of having friends right now. mainly because I'm sooo caught up in schooling that I'm scared it might hold me back and I'll fail again.
I need to see Scott, Aaron, Meagan, Bayli, Logan, Chris Anthony, Dani, Elisabeth, and everyone else! I really do, and I'm planning to set dates asap.
wow, I really need to get a lot done. but then again, I have nothing at all to do. I should sign up for some clubs or something to keep me busy.
another person I really miss is Chris Hawkins. I know I've been acting like I'm really mad at him, but in all honestly I'm not. I'm just frustrated at the whole fact that I can't have him, and I always get what I want. just this time it's backfired. oh well, I'll get over it.
okay!