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Everything seems to be stirring; in the wrong direction. Not in terms of myself, but in terms of this world. Talk of terroism, chaotic weather changes, global warming, war, religion, corrupt government, rising crime rates.
Sometimes I day dream. Well, I day dream alot. I dream about how I wish I could do something to change humanity. They say great things come in small packages. Well as small as an individual I am, how can this be possible? All I can do is sit withing in the comfort of my home and watch snow drift down icey air in the heat of all this battle.
My teacher says that one day humans will evolve. They will evolve into something great and do only great things. Good things. I hope he's right.
As you can tell, I'm going through this whole "purpose of life" phase. If we're destined to die, then why do we try and give life meaning? Why do we do, well, what we do? I wish I had the answers to all these questions. Hell, we don't even know if they will ever be answered. Apparently we will be rewarded in the afterlife. How is this possible, if we don't even know if there is a God?
Tomorrow I will wake up at 6:50 AM like I always do. I will go to school like I always do. I will learn like I always do. I will talk to people like I always do. I will come home like I always do. I will go home, do my homework, eat, shower, go to bed, and wake up at 6:50 AM...like I always do.
Maybe its not the purpose of life I'm asking for. Perhaps its just this whole senior year thing. I want to get out of here and leave my routine life that I have been doing so ever since my St. Theresa days. Maybe I just want to experience something new...