Let my Heart be Your Home
Been a while, has it not? Wowza. I would love to update you all on the insane amount of things that have gone down in these past couple weeks, but I am honestly sick of talking about it. God has put me in a crazy place...of total reliance on Him. I can't really trust anything else but His presence in my heart. I'm not so sure how to approach life right now...where do I go, what do I do, but I am resorting to what I have always known to be real...serving Him. So, I take the attention off of myself and pour whatever is left of me into people who need His love. Be it through my children's ministry, Connexion, Crusade, the soup kitchen, the food pantry, my job, IDS, the choir, or whatever else may come my way in the months ahead, I must do it for the sole purpose of His glory.
As many of you know, I have never been the kind of person who spends 100% of her time on herself. In fact I am most happy when its not about me at all, but about those who need His love. Why do you think I feel most myself in Mexico? Doesn't exactly take a genius to figure that out. I have a feeling that once I start living the right way again...less "me" more "Him" everything will fall into place. But even so, it won't really matter as much...I don't NEED a fairy tale or even a romance...in fact that's just the point...I DON'T need it. This is why I am pursuing the only Romance that has never changed, never lied, never experimented, and never broken my heart. Am I happy right now? No. Am I at peace about everything? No. Am I alive? Absolutely. The answer to that question is my reason to keep going. I am alive NOW and therefore...I am not done yet.
So I write a little more,
Offer a little more wisdom,
Open a book and close my eyes.
Not really knowing what's next on the menu
But sure of the fact that I am alive
I am alive in Christ.
Do I believe what I say?
Every now and then, perhaps
Most of the time, I'm just walking emotionless
But in His arms,
A peace is promised, though I don't feel it
I'm sure of the fact that I am alive
I am alive in Christ.
Here's to right now...with the hope of tomorrow. Knowing its not too far away to say I will live forever.
As many of you know, I have never been the kind of person who spends 100% of her time on herself. In fact I am most happy when its not about me at all, but about those who need His love. Why do you think I feel most myself in Mexico? Doesn't exactly take a genius to figure that out. I have a feeling that once I start living the right way again...less "me" more "Him" everything will fall into place. But even so, it won't really matter as much...I don't NEED a fairy tale or even a romance...in fact that's just the point...I DON'T need it. This is why I am pursuing the only Romance that has never changed, never lied, never experimented, and never broken my heart. Am I happy right now? No. Am I at peace about everything? No. Am I alive? Absolutely. The answer to that question is my reason to keep going. I am alive NOW and therefore...I am not done yet.
So I write a little more,
Offer a little more wisdom,
Open a book and close my eyes.
Not really knowing what's next on the menu
But sure of the fact that I am alive
I am alive in Christ.
Do I believe what I say?
Every now and then, perhaps
Most of the time, I'm just walking emotionless
But in His arms,
A peace is promised, though I don't feel it
I'm sure of the fact that I am alive
I am alive in Christ.
Here's to right now...with the hope of tomorrow. Knowing its not too far away to say I will live forever.