A Bright Sunny-shiny day
Ok, so I've fallen in love with this band "The Click Five"-they have this song called "Just the Girl" and its just pumping and happy. I love it. Thanks to the stupid toaster, I now have what looks like the letter "E" burnt on my hand...I'm hoping it goes away. That would be SO weird to have for the rest of your life.
Stuff hasn't exactly been the easiest lately...don't really want to dive into too much detail, however, everything will eventually be ok. I'm praying for grace in the current situation. That God will soften my parents hearts so they understand where I am and what exactly is going on.
I came to a very intense realization this week...that I guess I've known now for a while, but haven't been that great and verbalizing it. I am extremely insecure when it comes to relationships. It really is incredible. And I was wondering what set this off in me...and I realized, pretty much every guy that I have either liked, been involved with, or who has liked me up until this point has been so up-down-sideways about communication. So, because I have lost control so many times, I have this burning need to always know what's going on...even when I've heard it time and time again. For the first time, everything is going WELL...and everyone is on the same page and ok with how things are going. Amazing and so often, unless I'm speaking with him or praying about it, I'm waiting for the phone call, or lack of one for that matter, that tells me that this was all just a moment in time. I've been praying away those feelings...and I really have to just trust that God will do what He wants in this. I've got a great guy who thinks I'm great...I'm so totally blessed by this! They say that the first step in solving a problem is actually identifying the problem...so I've taken the first step...I realize how I am and why I am the way I am...so now its time to take the step of trust. Phew...haha. The best part...is that I really am happy, content when I'm with him. I can just be me...and from what I've seen...and what he's said...he can just be him and laugh about silly things. So, its good. I've just got a small mountain to conquer. At least I'm not alone on this...I've got my Lord.
All our problems...we send to the cross of Christ
All our difficulties...we send to the cross of Christ
All the devil's works...we send to the cross of Christ
All our hopes...we SET on the Risen Christ!
Amen!
Stuff hasn't exactly been the easiest lately...don't really want to dive into too much detail, however, everything will eventually be ok. I'm praying for grace in the current situation. That God will soften my parents hearts so they understand where I am and what exactly is going on.
I came to a very intense realization this week...that I guess I've known now for a while, but haven't been that great and verbalizing it. I am extremely insecure when it comes to relationships. It really is incredible. And I was wondering what set this off in me...and I realized, pretty much every guy that I have either liked, been involved with, or who has liked me up until this point has been so up-down-sideways about communication. So, because I have lost control so many times, I have this burning need to always know what's going on...even when I've heard it time and time again. For the first time, everything is going WELL...and everyone is on the same page and ok with how things are going. Amazing and so often, unless I'm speaking with him or praying about it, I'm waiting for the phone call, or lack of one for that matter, that tells me that this was all just a moment in time. I've been praying away those feelings...and I really have to just trust that God will do what He wants in this. I've got a great guy who thinks I'm great...I'm so totally blessed by this! They say that the first step in solving a problem is actually identifying the problem...so I've taken the first step...I realize how I am and why I am the way I am...so now its time to take the step of trust. Phew...haha. The best part...is that I really am happy, content when I'm with him. I can just be me...and from what I've seen...and what he's said...he can just be him and laugh about silly things. So, its good. I've just got a small mountain to conquer. At least I'm not alone on this...I've got my Lord.
All our problems...we send to the cross of Christ
All our difficulties...we send to the cross of Christ
All the devil's works...we send to the cross of Christ
All our hopes...we SET on the Risen Christ!
Amen!