Not so Candid Camera - Tag 45825243-t78-a

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She tried to convince herself that she could report to the higher ups about Amy's situation without the use of the cameras the other woman had agreed to have installed in her office. Liz knew it was humiliating from her own experiance and did nothing to make Amy feel like she wasn't being 'babysat', but there was no choice. Amy had already been

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"That is enough. That's the point."

While Logan would never want to take full responsibility for what Amy does - apart from anything else, that's no one's job but Amy's - he will, if that's what it takes. He appreciates Liz shielding Amy, in her own way, but he still feels there are limits to how much Amy needs to be babysat. There's a fine line between keeping an eye on someone and being pointlessly controlling. With the cameras and the blood tests, Liz has crossed that line. Though Logan isn't really angry at her anymore, he still doesn't agree with what she's done.

It's not that Logan thinks Liz is pulling rank, but she's using her position as an excuse to do something that in Logan's opinion doesn't need to be done. What she should be doing is use her position as an excuse to not do all of that. Screw pressure from above. Liz has the power to protect Amy, and she's only done half a job of it so far.

"How long's it been, now? She's doin' fine. Lay off the babysittin'." Which Liz is doing, apparently, if the sudden demise of the last camera is anything to go by. But why this speech, then? They seem to be both at the same page and in different books altogether, and Logan isn't liking the mixed messages.

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To be fair, Liz requested Amy have an psychological evaluation and set up counseling if the doctor advised it, and undergo screenings to make sure she wasn't drinking on the job. It's nothing more than they'd have requested of a an employee with a history of substance abuse...like Liz had to do after the whole mental hospital incident. Whatever else Jack requested of Amy is on his head.

"Have you ever been in rehab, Logan?" Liz tilts her head when he tells her Amy's doing fine. "Ever been on probation or anything like that?" She doesn't wait for him to answer. "After Pittsburgh, I was in prison. Then Broom pulled some strings, got the charges dropped, and..." She tenses thinking about that. "I left anyway. I knew I couldn't do it by myself so instead of being angry and resentful to the people here that tried to help me, I got the help I needed. For me. For them. So I could be a functioning member of the team again. I was gone almost a year."

Liz takes a deep breath and looks at Logan. "I donno what Amy needs. Every time I talk to her about it, she just goes in circles and won't answer my question of even consider my suggestion to help her. Then...I have to be her boss. She doesn't give me a choice when she acts like that." It's sad, but it's true. "I'm starting to think she doesn't want help at all. That she likes being...so broken."

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"What she wants, is her kid back."

Different people have different ways of dealing with things. Logan has tried both versions of post-screw-up measures himself in the past, and they both have their pros and cons. Sticking around can be harder. It can also mean you need your team more, can't risk being away from those who help balance you out, even if there is a risk. Sometimes, the risk of not having someone to keep you connected to who you are is bigger.

"Maybe she wants fixed, an' maybe she doesn't. Point is, if she ain't doin' it for herself, she's gonna do it for Luke." And that - that takes away any doubt, as far as Logan is concerned. Maybe he's projecting too many of his own feelings on Amy, but the fact is, there are times when fighting for yourself just isn't worth it. Fighting for others, however - having people to fight for, to be better than you are for? Anyone half-decent will do that, Logan is convinced. And Amy, for all her faults, is a good person. He knows she is. "You really don't trust her that far?"