GREAT NEWS
1st I got a job that i love working at PETCO in the grooming department it doesn't pay alot but im hoping they will put me in there programe to be trained as a proffessional groomer. mY anxiety meds aren't working very well but i have to say work actually helps that because if its not the puppies then theres a bunny i compleatly fell in love with and i want to adopt. I just dont know if hes adoptable or for sell because i dont think i can afford him and everything else that i would have to get if hes for sell. he would be over $50 with tax :( but i adore him i want to bring him/her home so bad. i held her today and she curled up in my arms after that she wasnt afraid.
2nd all of my puppies seem to like me except when i try to do there nails but i think thats because im slow and very nervous
3rd my best friend is having a baby and i got to be with her and see the ultrasound
4th my other best friend just had a baby. my friend milly told me that Kevs (my friend who is a daddy) had the baby yesterday she heard from the bitch holly. Well holly was wrong Kevs girlfriend didnt' have the baby two days ago it was a false alarms, which is why Kev didnt' call me and tell me so today he called and said that Sir Tristian Alexander was born at 11am 18/05/05 :) Yes Sir is part of his real name. Kev wanted him to have a name of honour and importance from the time he was born . Thats kev for you. wanting better for his son than he has .
5th all these babies make me want a bunny.
6th i can't wait well i can but anyway untill i have can have a family. Be a mother know that life is growing inside of me. like i helped create . Its so beatiful in a painful sort of way. I just hope when that day comes i can support myself and hopefully have a father that is an active part of the childs life.
7th i still want to learn body peircing and massage theropy
8th krissy is offically gone and out of our lives
9th i told my brother how i felt. he didnt say much except that im intitled to those feelings but that he doesn't care he just want to let all the past go
10th my friend told me to becareful if the theropist is talking ptsd because he got locked up for that but that was years ago. Im stable with meds. i just need a new anxiety med. he did make a point though. A theropist can't take away the past and what happens if you reconize, rember the past but can't just accept it.. what if not matter what you do it still haunts you because it was so traumatic? i thought of that myself thats why i choose to go on meds so i dont fuck up again. hopefully someday i can function without them but for now i can't help but be a drug addict even if i dont get high its not about that its about feeling normal and relaxed. something i have trouble doing.
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2nd all of my puppies seem to like me except when i try to do there nails but i think thats because im slow and very nervous
3rd my best friend is having a baby and i got to be with her and see the ultrasound
4th my other best friend just had a baby. my friend milly told me that Kevs (my friend who is a daddy) had the baby yesterday she heard from the bitch holly. Well holly was wrong Kevs girlfriend didnt' have the baby two days ago it was a false alarms, which is why Kev didnt' call me and tell me so today he called and said that Sir Tristian Alexander was born at 11am 18/05/05 :) Yes Sir is part of his real name. Kev wanted him to have a name of honour and importance from the time he was born . Thats kev for you. wanting better for his son than he has .
5th all these babies make me want a bunny.
6th i can't wait well i can but anyway untill i have can have a family. Be a mother know that life is growing inside of me. like i helped create . Its so beatiful in a painful sort of way. I just hope when that day comes i can support myself and hopefully have a father that is an active part of the childs life.
7th i still want to learn body peircing and massage theropy
8th krissy is offically gone and out of our lives
9th i told my brother how i felt. he didnt say much except that im intitled to those feelings but that he doesn't care he just want to let all the past go
10th my friend told me to becareful if the theropist is talking ptsd because he got locked up for that but that was years ago. Im stable with meds. i just need a new anxiety med. he did make a point though. A theropist can't take away the past and what happens if you reconize, rember the past but can't just accept it.. what if not matter what you do it still haunts you because it was so traumatic? i thought of that myself thats why i choose to go on meds so i dont fuck up again. hopefully someday i can function without them but for now i can't help but be a drug addict even if i dont get high its not about that its about feeling normal and relaxed. something i have trouble doing.
amber