Forgotten...
I totally forgot about this damn thing. Occasionally someone would bring it up, but i havent actually visited and read in months, maybe. Prolly not that long, but still enough to have to go back a couple pages to catch up on everything. Some of it i knew, but most of it I had not gotten wind of, and it reminded me of how much people write in their livejournals that they dont communicate with other people.
Wow, that sounded super corny.
So life...as we know it...
I feel like giving up on alot of things...friendships, possible relationships, school...of course drinking isnt one of these things...that only gets worse, hahaha. I love how I feel like im an alcoholic in the 11th grade. I know its also ridiculous that I am, but sometimes...when im saying to myself "I really wanna get drunk tonite" it feels like it.
Schools actually going well...bringin the GPA up, finally hit that coveted 3 (oh yes...) Im doing no work though, its very strange. Everyone said this was supposed to be a killer year, when so far english is my best subject/grade (which has never happened before in my life), and my lowest grade is a C+
Kyle is dead to me. ive seen him a couple times since he left, and each time hes a bigger douchebag. Cristina tells me on a regular basis to just tell him to fuck off, but i kept holding onto our friendship, considering he was my best friend and all, but now i just dont care. Hes such an ass/douchebag/whatever insult...hes a slave to popularity, making him lose whatever little value of character i ever saw in him before, and just has been totally retardedized by going to springboro.
That makes me really scared tho, because i really wanted to go back to springboro. But i dont wanna be like that, to the best extent of my power...but since i dont wanna be at mvs either, where the fuck do i wanna be? its a confusing question im too lazy to figure out the answer to.
College weekend coming up...really really dreading it, even though we dont have to go on a stupid trip to like idaho or something. I wanna take a year off after high school, then go to college. I dont care, that just seems like the best thing. I have NO inkling of an idea of what to do with myself. I have one pipedream...broadcast journalism, but i doubt that would go anywhere.
List of shit i need in order of importance:
girlfriend
license
money
haircut
new computer (yea, immersion supercomputer is shot)
iPod
to be in better shape
I cant even do more than a pullup.
50% of moby dick is outta the way...only the paper left to take care of, and its outta the way!
so much more to write about
Wow, that sounded super corny.
So life...as we know it...
I feel like giving up on alot of things...friendships, possible relationships, school...of course drinking isnt one of these things...that only gets worse, hahaha. I love how I feel like im an alcoholic in the 11th grade. I know its also ridiculous that I am, but sometimes...when im saying to myself "I really wanna get drunk tonite" it feels like it.
Schools actually going well...bringin the GPA up, finally hit that coveted 3 (oh yes...) Im doing no work though, its very strange. Everyone said this was supposed to be a killer year, when so far english is my best subject/grade (which has never happened before in my life), and my lowest grade is a C+
Kyle is dead to me. ive seen him a couple times since he left, and each time hes a bigger douchebag. Cristina tells me on a regular basis to just tell him to fuck off, but i kept holding onto our friendship, considering he was my best friend and all, but now i just dont care. Hes such an ass/douchebag/whatever insult...hes a slave to popularity, making him lose whatever little value of character i ever saw in him before, and just has been totally retardedized by going to springboro.
That makes me really scared tho, because i really wanted to go back to springboro. But i dont wanna be like that, to the best extent of my power...but since i dont wanna be at mvs either, where the fuck do i wanna be? its a confusing question im too lazy to figure out the answer to.
College weekend coming up...really really dreading it, even though we dont have to go on a stupid trip to like idaho or something. I wanna take a year off after high school, then go to college. I dont care, that just seems like the best thing. I have NO inkling of an idea of what to do with myself. I have one pipedream...broadcast journalism, but i doubt that would go anywhere.
List of shit i need in order of importance:
girlfriend
license
money
haircut
new computer (yea, immersion supercomputer is shot)
iPod
to be in better shape
I cant even do more than a pullup.
50% of moby dick is outta the way...only the paper left to take care of, and its outta the way!
so much more to write about