You'll say you understand, but you don't understand.
Dude. LJ's FINALLY working for me. *rolls eyes*
Fiona Apple kick. I <3 her. *nod*
*sigh* I was so hyper a minute ago. But now the energy just like... drained from me and now I'm all like... my life is shit. I don't know. Maybe I'm being stupid and angsty. I HATE being like that. I just feel like... I don't know. There must be something wrong with me. Why can't I find someone? I mean, I know I have Brian who worships the ground I walk on, but... It's not...there for me. Which makes me feel like a complete cold hearted bitch and I hate myself for it, but... it's just not there for me. But I already know I'm gonna keep him around just so I can have someone, so then I'm using him which makes me even more cold hearted. Now, I want to cry. How come everyone else gets to be in love? Why is it that everyone has been in and out of love several times, but I haven't been in love once? Why?!
I still think that if Noah'd stuck around... No! I'm not even going to go there! Jesus, I wish I'd come off him! He had a girl friend the whole time! He never cared about me! When is my brain going to process that?
Oh. I think it just did. I cry too much. Seriously, the littlest thing tips me off.
God, I just read all of that. And I feel really fucking stupid. So I'm gonna shut up now.
Luvies,
Erica
Fiona Apple kick. I <3 her. *nod*
*sigh* I was so hyper a minute ago. But now the energy just like... drained from me and now I'm all like... my life is shit. I don't know. Maybe I'm being stupid and angsty. I HATE being like that. I just feel like... I don't know. There must be something wrong with me. Why can't I find someone? I mean, I know I have Brian who worships the ground I walk on, but... It's not...there for me. Which makes me feel like a complete cold hearted bitch and I hate myself for it, but... it's just not there for me. But I already know I'm gonna keep him around just so I can have someone, so then I'm using him which makes me even more cold hearted. Now, I want to cry. How come everyone else gets to be in love? Why is it that everyone has been in and out of love several times, but I haven't been in love once? Why?!
I still think that if Noah'd stuck around... No! I'm not even going to go there! Jesus, I wish I'd come off him! He had a girl friend the whole time! He never cared about me! When is my brain going to process that?
Oh. I think it just did. I cry too much. Seriously, the littlest thing tips me off.
God, I just read all of that. And I feel really fucking stupid. So I'm gonna shut up now.
Luvies,
Erica