Why!
Someone once said this to me.
"From what I've seen, you're a good person, Alan; willing to help out people you barely know and then expect nothing in return from them. That's kind of a rare combination."
For all the good that you do you always manage to fuck it up. I've managed twice in this week to make major mistakes. All my fault, mind you, But I am trying to find answers. Why am I the way I am. Am I that deeply scared that I don't belong with anyone. Do I have some deep inside haterid of myself that I can't allow myself to be happy. The best thing that ever came along in your life, and you are single handly destroying it. Why can you never learn. your never going to go anywhere in life. The new light and happyness that you are expericaning and you are singlehandly distroying it. Your such a fuckup, you don't belong with her. she is too good of a light in your life. she has never shown you nothing but kindness and understanding yet you continue to fuck it up. Tears willn't fix it, A broken knuckle and bloody hands don't fix anything but the anger you have at yourself for being so selfish. Help yourself before you lose it all. its coming fast. If it does you will be a truly misrable wretch, with noone to blame but yourself. You pain now is nothing to what you will expericance then.
"From what I've seen, you're a good person, Alan; willing to help out people you barely know and then expect nothing in return from them. That's kind of a rare combination."
For all the good that you do you always manage to fuck it up. I've managed twice in this week to make major mistakes. All my fault, mind you, But I am trying to find answers. Why am I the way I am. Am I that deeply scared that I don't belong with anyone. Do I have some deep inside haterid of myself that I can't allow myself to be happy. The best thing that ever came along in your life, and you are single handly destroying it. Why can you never learn. your never going to go anywhere in life. The new light and happyness that you are expericaning and you are singlehandly distroying it. Your such a fuckup, you don't belong with her. she is too good of a light in your life. she has never shown you nothing but kindness and understanding yet you continue to fuck it up. Tears willn't fix it, A broken knuckle and bloody hands don't fix anything but the anger you have at yourself for being so selfish. Help yourself before you lose it all. its coming fast. If it does you will be a truly misrable wretch, with noone to blame but yourself. You pain now is nothing to what you will expericance then.