Summer Suits me Perfectly
I over heard Tommy talking to Joey earlier and he says, "dont do anything now that youll be embarassed to explain to the paramedics later" I enjoyed that bit of life and I enjoyed tonight. I actually had money on the plans with Kyle falling through so it didnt suprise me too much that Jeff couldnt make it. Instead I spent the night reading my old Wicca books and relearning a craft that has been waiting patiently for a time in my life when it can reappear. I think now, with so many people pointing out my spiritual side and my common encounters with my grandfather is the perfect time to start developing whatever there is out there. I know, it sounds crazy to most people. Dan is at the cape...what did I do on Sunday nights before he took over my life? I had a great weekend at camp learning about myself in solitude. Tony comes back on Tuesday...Tony comes back on Tuesday...Tony comes back on Tuesday...Monica came to visit today and the first thing she says is, "you relaly miss him huh" and I do but she then proceeded to point out that when he is around I cant stand him and I constantly tell him to leave and never come back. I guess thats what a nine year old would pick up on. I talked to Jon tonight, he seems so...ok about going back to school...kepts talking about hanging out with each other...tells me he cant wait to visit...I'm not so sure. I feel like after a summer of nothing but text messages and emails there is going to be a little bit of "oh my god I have to talk to him face to face" ah well. I dont want to go back. Summer is working out just fine right now and I would like to keep it in a bubble of perfection for another few weeks anyways. I wonder how many more summer like this there will be? This could after all be the last one when we are all together. Kyle was talking about not coming home next year. I'm talking about it too. Talking about spending the summer in Italy..thats all talk but it makes me wonder...if I do come home will any one be here for me or are we all to be off exploring our lives? I have such intensly amazing friends who are all going to do such wonderful things and while that is what makes my life so rich and beautiful I cant help but wince a little at the knowledge that such people arent going to hang around springfield forever. that my days with the group fully intact are limited. I wonder how we will all go about filling the void and replace irreplaceable friends?